L1 and Toni Smoke - Feel So High (feat. Grace Chia)

Only ever seem to want what's bad for me
But I don't know that when it's happening
So every word I speak is of tragedy
And every time I blink I'm in agony
Exhausted tired of turning a blind eye
Nauseas sick of the right place wrong guy
I like a challenge bring on the torture
Put me off balance I like the deep water
Till I don't and I'm far from sure
No hope but I ask for more
Once again I've been left for dead
I can't follow my heart when it's off it's head
Like why do I do this put myself through this
Triple my bet when I know that I'm losing
Know that my friends hear the same excuses
Over again we all know what I'm doing
Get ruthless so stupid
So sorry that I act up a nuisance
Punish myself and neglect my music
Part of a pattern I'm yet to break through it
Yet to accept that I need to invest all my time into writing
And clean up my head
Look at this mess look what you've done
Take a look at the ways that you fuck yourself up
Granted there's many
Standard get messy
I planned it you ready?
I'm running on empty
But there's gotta be something left
In amongst all the post traumatic stress
I want a life I'm gonna make one
Stand in my way you can see what I'm made of
Cos I won't back down no more
All the tools that I need are inside my core
Been bruised been bleeding fuck that noise
I'mma drown out the sound cos I found my voice
I'mma speak for those who feel stuck
I'mma prove that we don't need luck
I'mma show that I don't need help
All I need is a dream believe in myself
All I need is a dream believe in myself
In theory ideally
Stick to it think clearly
I don't wanna look back see nearly
I just needa extract my feelings
Put 'em in places where they make sense
Decide what I want get the fuck off the fence
Discipline something I always admired
Learned all the lessons and never applied them
I say I too much I don't like to trust
I been fuckin dumb till I wisened up
Now there's no excuse I just get it done
I don't need approval who are they to judge?
If you don't have the heart to do what you love
You're the last who could laugh at someone who does
And the first one I tell to go and get fucked
When I step out of hell and blow the place up
Like bang there go my memories
There go my everything
Fuck my identity I don't need anything
I been dependent and wasted my energy
Nobody taking the rest of me

Written by:
Laura Beddome

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