Filanthropy - BROKEN LOVE

How can i give you
The sun the moon and the stars
If i can't see myself live past 22
I'm thinking
"this isn't right"
I don't wanna go on just living this lackluster life
I've seen the bright side
And i've fallen in the deep end
One too many times
Said i've fallen off the deep end
One too many times
I can't lie and say i'm fine
I've tried and tried to be alright
It never works for too much time
I'm sitting here and crying now
Like i just want you to see me here
Appreciate me and my life and that i'm here
I couldn't get myself to brush my teeth today and you yelled at me for it
Maybe you'd change your mind if you found out i've been fighting for my life
Like every day i'm worse and worse
This isn't something i can keep up
I tried so hard not to end my life
Since writing this, i tried twice
It's so damn hard
I just hate my life
And i hate myself
I just want to go
No more pain to deal
Disappointing failure
That's what i've been branded
Out of luck, no hope to turn to
I'm just a burnout with no home too
I said goodbye to the last bit of happy
Reminiscing every moment, every minute that fell after
Holding onto memories inside my head like a child's toy
Gripping, pulling closer as if that would make you wanna stay
8:37
We've been discussing it for hours
Said you had to move away
I didn't show it, but i broke
This feeling just won't seem to fade
Cascade like waves of pity onto me
It's like my world just turned grey
Sadly this isn't new to me
I thought that i was strong till i lost the one who made me happy
Emotional sickness
Sick to my stomach
I'm sorry i'm like this
But i don't know if i can change
This hit me like a train
I thought i found the one who stopped the rain
But as you left, you took my umbrella
Now i'm standing in the street
Alone
Tears flowing down my face
I thought that i could keep it under
Play it cool and be alright
But the fright of being not enough
Caught up and bit me once again
Caught up and bit me once again
I need to stop my second guessing
All it lead to was more questions
I don't need to listen to that voice
That tells me i am not enough
This battle i've been fighting
A fight for love
And a fight for trust
A fight for making up and working out the past that lies ahead of me
I need to stop assuming that everyone will take advantage of me
Get it off my mind
Blindside myself
I'm here all alone
I need some space
Some time to cope
Step outside
And i'll hit the road
Now i'm driving
Said i'm driving
And i'm aiming higher
Thoughts grow quiet when the speed goes up
Bliss in ignorance
But i truly can't ignore this feeling
I just wish it would just leave me be
Don't want to feel this pain again
I keep falling down in the wrong times
You were the perfect person
I can't help it
I just wish that i could block you out
And shut this off
I made a promise to you that when we last spoke
I'd be safe while driving
Even though these thoughts are eating me alive
I just want you to know i will be safe while
While i'm on this drive

Written by:
Jonathan Ustinenkov

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