Filanthropy - FLOWERS IN THE WINTER

I never wanna end up here again
It's made me stronger
Lost a couple friends
Shed a few tears
But in the end
I think i came right out on top
Always preaching bout how the past can help you grow
Now i need to take my own advice
And settle down
Write some lines
Self medication deprivation from solution in the horizon
It it sad
Cannot excuse that
Something that i thought would follow me right to my death
Just vanished
Like the smile from cheek to cheek
The day that you had left
Left a hole inside my chest
Feelings felt repressed about the situation had at hand
Didn't wanna beat a dead horse
But i had to know
Thankfully the situation shifted to a better one
Keeping my health in place
Feelings in a better place
Running at a steady pace
Even when i feel all grey
Know that it will be okay
Rainy days may come in april
Just know it will soon enable
Flowers in the winter
Gloomy sunshine
Raining through the day
Alone in a crowd of people who say that they know my name
I'll take my damn spot in line
And wait for my day to shine
Teasing me
Just playing me
And messing with my head
Why would you say those things if you didn't really mean them
You messed it up
Messed me
I'm now messed up
And slowly turning grey inside
Gonna turn a new leaf
Roll it up and let it seep
Into my brain inside my mind
I feel so lost when i browse my thoughts
Lonely walking down this corridor
Don't know where it might lead
Maybe to a door
In which i find my freedom
An exit from my thoughts
An exit from the pain
Filling up the tank with tears
I'll just go another year
All these cloudy skies in my vision
Maybe one day i'll awaken
From this endless nightmare
That i have been living in
Almost took the easy exit
Had a lot pent-up
I was tired of just floating and not living, always pushed along the shore
My judgement clouded by the tears streaming down my face
I screamed out
Panic gripping at my chest
I almost left then, left this earth and all my friends
But i held out
Now heading up
No looking back
On blackened skies that filled my vision that sad night
That sad night

Written by:
Jonathan Ustinenkov

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