Delusional Steven - Depression Effect

I'm living in this paradox
Nobody knows about my knots
I was a born sinner
Jesus Christ was my killer
I'm living my own thriller
Acting like Ben Stiller
Let's erase, all the mistakes
I like the taste, but I'm done when she wakes
And this right here ain't a fact, but it could be
I'm not gonna tell you what it should be
I'm so good to you, but you don't see
I think I messed up
But then I realized, I don't give a fuck
I'm depressed all the time
And this will always be me, I'm sorry I wasted your time
I know you tried to drag me out of my mind
I'm held captive
My minds static
I hope you know, this is a love habit
I'm an addict
I'm trapped again
Give me some space til I relax again
I miss the kiss you give, when I'm at my end
I'm letting it go for too long, just to try and suspend
Any feeling or emotion
I'm putting in the notion
I'm causing commotion
I'm leaving it off at the end of the motion
Causing this explosion
Deep down inside my heart
If I start talking about us, the song will restart
Making the beats shift
And we all drift
Till I'm gone and shit
But let it be known
I'm not fine alone
This affect on my brain
Is causing me so much fucking pain
I'm not sane
I'm too insane
Everyday is the same
I can't, I can't take it anymore
This has to end before
I meet another whore
I'm not trying to leave this place
I just can't stand looking at my face
This shit is annoying as fuck
I guess it's my luck
To be fucked over every god damn day
I'm killing myself someday
No matter what I say
I'm lying in a way
But I do need to go
I'm too lost in my own world you know
I love you and shit, and I feel bad for this
But every night I'm dreaming of another world where I'm fine
And everyday I feel like I'm gonna tie a noose around my mind
I don't feel okay
And that's all I need to say
Don't need no attention
I just need to this tension
To leave me be
So I can finally see
What it's like to be happy
I've lost my mind already
I'll never stay long enough to go steady
I need help
Before I fucking kill myself
What have I not said
That I wanna be dead
But I already have
And I get put on the spot for my depression and shit, what do I say back
Too much thought into death
I'm gonna let myself go to rest

Written by:
Alan Watts, Steven Nesser

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