VECT - Lost

I'm lost like hell never knew what to be
With no help but left behind when they said they were family
How can it be so tough? I just wanna get away from the fiction and junk because I've had so much
Always shot down with the title of a loser
Locked in a void with emotional abusers
I'm a chooser of the path but it never goes straight
People act like my problems just have no weight
I been alone so long to make fierce decisions
Didn't know what to do with my unclear visions
In my brain I felt little to gain I don't know how it goes the shotgun has been blown
And all I know is pain I been in circles with bullshit never goes away
Much as I elude it, it straddles and I'm blamed
Can't get away I can never win
I try so hard, but nothing ever seems to wanna fuckin' give

Guess I'm lost
God I'm lost
Guess I'm lost
I'm so lost

Still, I think to this day, should I change?
To fuck myself up more and mess with my brain?
Just to please you and be you and still be hated?
I'd rather keep it maniacal 'cause you'd only betray it
I'm still trying to make something of myself believe me
Hard to do when so many are ready to deceive me
Lookin' at me you see a old lonely soul
Keepin' it as strong as I can to stay in control
I really can't explain the evil built inside
When I'm expressin' my depression, I don't ever lie
I beat myself up for my errors when they're so small
I ain't perfect don't wanna be so don't be tauntin' me
I get cheated defeated I just can't believe it
Work so hard but bad luck stays repeated
It's like my mind is a line I try to keep straight
Jumpin' over garbage but I land headfirst on the gate

Born with challenges, my disabilities
Being a saint is impossible, therefore I'm the villain V
Sometimes I wish she was here so I could ask my mother
Also got no comfort with no significant other
All I wanna do is grip this mic and poor out my heart
To help people that have dealt and pull more out the dark
Drop song after song till I can no longer breathe
Then lay in my coffin holdin' onto a V
I got one reason to live let's keep it at this
No music no life I hope I'll be leavin' some prints
I'm smashing through any block or halt in my path
And your goin' down with it if you collar me man
I don't need your sympathy nor do I beg
'Cause I fight what I can that's every day
If you feel my tragedies, then all I can say
Is you feel my pain and you got my biggest thanks

Written by:
Pantera Puglisi

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