Julian Greene - Not Dead Yet

Winter came rolling in sooner than I had seen
Perhaps I neglected the sign of the falling leaves
Maybe I'm numb, maybe I've grown accustomed
To being let down, I knew I shouldn't trust ya
But I couldn't leave
I'm always holding on to shit I can't keep
Guess you weren't meant for me
And you know those pretty emerald eyes became my rapture
Confined behind film of memories that we wished to capture
But you left at the end of the week
Feels like you're abandoning me
Now I'm stagnant and standing between
Death and someone I can't see
Mania is days away
Our silver lining's fading gray
Don't mean to radiate all of the guilt and the pain
I hope you never have to feel this way
We both know what you meant to me
So I won't go
There's no hope
Till you're back with me
I don't care what people think we got something unique
You know I'd stop the world to be with you and give you what you need
These empty halls echo your name it got me screaming in my sleep
But I don't mind these fucking cold sweats if I see you in my dreams
Girl I never thought I'd lose you, lose you
Making music trying to move you, boohoo
Guess I made my movement too soon
You knew I'd never take advantage of you like your new dude
Time took us a new direction
I just wanted your attention
Slide through when you need affection
Things changed so much I barely recognize my reflection
This ain't what I expected
You were blind and reckless
With your sly intentions
Every sign neglected
You let me die inside
Your love was my infection
Now that our time has ended
Wonder if I dreamt it
Upstate, skyline, sunrise and sunset
I forgot to mention
That's my heart you left with
Took me months to realize
So why am I not dead yet?
Please let me wake up, let's make up
Don't wanna take you down with me
Feel like I'm drowning please
Keep your hand out for me
So many months passing by
And where have you been
It's been so long since I've tasted your lips
Or looked in your eyes
You haven't called me in weeks
Why did we fall apart
Please don't say that it's me
I'm losing hope
But I don't want to let go
You knew that I was wrong
When I said what we had was something so beautiful
Now that our time has ended
Wonder if I dreamt it
Upstate, skyline, sunrise and sunset
I forgot to mention
That's my heart you left with
Took me months to realize
So how am I not dead yet?

Written by:
Julian Greene

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