Esko, The Collector - Darkside

Hope I don't trip and fall cause I know I wouldn't find my way back up
Back is up against the wall, try to walk but I'm too fucked up
Oh my God do you see what I see
Oh my God what is happening to me
Three shots down, for a two man down, for the one man who can take it all down
Hope that you never call cause I know that I just can't handle love
Know that you never saw the side of me that was too messed up
The dark side
You haven't seen my dark side

I didn't want this life
I didn't want this fight with the bad mother fuckers that are calling me out
Take off your mask mother fucker if you running your mouth on me
I'm just tryna live in peace
Do I really feel bad if they keep poking at the beast
Almost like they want the smoke, almost like they want the smoke
Almost like they want to see who exactly I can be
Don't stop now with it, cause I've been talking too much shit lately
Baby girl told me that I'm a big baby
Maybe if I stopped trying to pretend
That everybody's gonna leave me by the time I reach the end
But that's just how I feel
Doesn't change even if my dollar turns to a couple Mil
All my friends are saying I'm too turnt and that I better chill
homie chill, you know I'm tryna be who I am
I'm on that level that I know only a few could understand
Man

Told me not to cry when I saw my life go insane
Now they looking at me like I'm never gonna be the same
Who am I, who are you to tell me to stop
Can't wait for the day that I finally fly away

Looking back
I just hope you understand
May of had a couple nights where I was too invested in my working hands
Making plans, seeing bands
Listened but I ain't a fan
Had too many interested but all they were are fucking stans
Ugh
I just care about my people tonight
Know I might get too aggressive on the absence of light
But I'm alright
Take it easy like I'm flying a kite
That is till someone gets uneasy now they pickin' a fight
Alright alright
Feel adrenaline, they stop him but I let him in
Ain't no fucking reason I should go down as the better man
Take my time with it, know that I'm fine
Always keeping my composure while they losing their mind
I don't talk, I just keep on seizing
I do what I want and I don't need a fucking reason
I'm the cowboy kid cause I just keep on fucking beefing
With the snakes in the grass, yeah its just that time of season
Okay

Hope I don't trip and fall cause I know I wouldn't find my way back up
Back is up against the wall, try to walk but I'm too fucked up
Oh my God do you see what I see
Oh my God what is happening to me
Three shots down, for a two man down, for the one man who can take it all down
Hope that you never call cause I know that I just can't handle love
Know that you never saw the side of me that was too messed up
The dark side
You haven't seen my dark side

No body waiting for their turn, they just all low riding hoping that they won't ever be seen
Our body bigger than our words, but I know my soul rotting ain't the type of thing that need to be clean
Common sense but they act like they don't know
And they never gave a reason and they won't admit it even to me
Promises that I'm keeping on the low
And I'm wishing I could say it but I know how messy that shit can be
Who the fuck am I, tell me who the fuck can I be
Past all of the traits these beings gave me so I can't see
Growing up is hard when you're picking up the pieces
That you left behind you close your eyes and talk to Jesus
But its empty, why is it so empty, I need someone to talk to but everybody left me
I don't wanna care anymore
I don't wanna care any fucking more man.

Written by:
Orlando Rodriguez

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