JUMA MUSIC - GRIEF X GRATITUDE
Memories, memories
Corner of my mind
I T. O. R. Y.
I reminisce and I rewind
To a much happier place
And a much happier time
When my mama was alive, and my father was alive
Before cancer and diabetes took them both before my eyes
I had everything, I was like the richest man alive
Not material, I'm talking about what money never buys
Every moment is a miracle, lows and the highs
And the present is a gift but you don't know what's inside
Until God makes you open it through too early good-byes
And you staring at your worst nightmare come alive
No Frankenstein's, goblins, ghosts, or werewolves
But a new reality without people you love the most
So I propose a toast to right now
Even if your day feel like the light's out
We can celebrate and fake like it's nice out
Grief and gratitude
When you're smiling outside, inside you're just fighting to survive
Grief and gratitude
Even when your sunshine's looking like nighttime all the time
Grief and gratitude
When you're happy to be breathing, but can't nobody see that you're grieving
Grief and gratitude
Thank God for it all what don't kill me, only makes me stronger
Grief and gratitude
Memories
Memories
Corner of my mind
I T O R Y
I reminisce and I rewind
To a much happier place and a much happier time
Back when Nana was alive
And uncle Deviere
And Grand Dad was still here
Even when somebody's sick
You ain't never prepared to come to grips with a reality that this could be it
And I can never forget
All of them days I would sit
Next to my mother while she's getting chemotherapy drip
I want to pray but only I can say is f* cancer
And everything they stand for
All them institutions that be holding back solutions
Cause they don't come from a white man in a lab coat and a suit
Man that's enough to John Q it
That's enough to start shooting
That's enough to start using and they wonder why
Drug and violent crimes be so high
Then to make the grief greater
I buried my moms and then my therapist died a week later
I was like a walking earthquake tornado volcano
Until the liquor made the pain go
When everything is rain
Gotta make your own rainbow
But I had a great mother so I'm thankful
Grief and gratitude
When you're smiling outside, inside you're just fighting to survive
Grief and gratitude
Even when your sunshine's looking like nighttime all the time
Grief and gratitude
When you're happy to be breathing, but can't nobody see that you're grieving
Grief and gratitude
Thank God for it all what don't kill me, only makes me stronger
Grief and gratitude
They say give it time
You'll get over it like dotted i's
That's a lie
I do not co-sign
Skip the dotted line
Suicide
That was on my mind, way too many times
I'd go blind to the blessings that was right before my eyes
When the grief makes you feel like death is your only relief
Nowhere near a beach, but them waves hit super deep
Losing sleep, and your days start turning into weeks
Then your weeks start blurring into fuzzy grey streaks
And the memories are like your best friends and your enemies
Up then you're down roller coaster style
I thought grief and gratitude was opposite attitudes
And they had to feud, truth is I had to use both
Like it takes sun and rain just to balance out the growth
So I propose a toast to right now
Even if your day feels like the light's out
We can celebrate and fake like it's nice out
Grief and gratitude
Written by:
Juma Inniss
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