Yanagi - Salvation Story

When the time comes for you to be your own man
And take on the world
And you did
But somewhere along the line, you changed
You stopped being you
You let people stick a finger in your face
And tell you you're no good
And when things got hard
You started looking for something to blame
Let me tell you something you already know
The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows
It's a very mean, and nasty place
And I don't care how tough you are
It will beat you to your knees
And keep you there permanently if you let it
You, or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life
Yeah, look
I was so caught in the weed smoke
We don't really cry that's how we cope
It really was making me weaker though
I had to lose it all just to believe though
Put down the blunt and I looked to the sky
Looked in the mirror and I didn't see me
Crying to sleep in the middle the street
In the back of my civic was shivering, weak
Swear it was days it was 15 degrees
Had to rev up my engine to run up the heat
You were my slime but you turning on me
Inadvertently you let me worship the weed
You let my demons become part of me
And I started to think it was permanent
I didn't believe all the sermons at services
I would just leave once the music was over
Closing my eyes and see demons and ogres
Teachers would stress what I keep in my folders
I really needed the guidance to find out where God is
I wish I was keeping him closer
Had two mature had to switch up my motives
She had me at "pull up", I didn't see through
I was just trying to give her the (uh)
The better I do, the more she'll come through, right?
I was so foolish to hurt who I loved
Guess it's a cycle you do what you from
I don't like blaming my pain on my mother, but that's what it was
It made me a thug
I really never liked selling the drugs
I really never liked doing them neither
But I was starving, I had to wait 'til the middle the night, to go jug from the freezer
I don't have time to be making excuses
I swear the devil is ruthless
I was just doing whatever I'm good at like, "Hey if the shoe fits,
I really think I can do this"
I was the devil's apostle
I had a woman that really resembled a model
Searching for love in a blunt and a bottle
Feel sorrow for all of the people that followed
I even cut up my wrist once
But then I felt tempted to do it again
I was a toxen, ruining friends
And couldn't see what I was doing to them
Didn't see hope for the old me
I was just trying to deal with the new me
Back before puberty man if you knew me
That was the real me, I just been offering realty
Letting these demons inside of my body
I was a zombie
I left my spirit behind me
I had to make an apology, to all my loved ones, listen, I'm sorry
Really didn't feel like myself at the parties
Me and my boys aint addicted are we?
I fell in love with my dogs but I didn't wanna see none of them end up like Marley
One day I'm sitting in church
Thinking of leaving
Let me just walk through the pew
Came by a lady that I never knew
But she stopped me like "I should be praying for you"
She put her hand on the back of my neck
I couldn't help it I burst into tears
She told me to let go of all of my fears
"For you ain't alone, your Savior's here"
I don't know, did I believe it then?
Definitely know I ain't seen it then
I was so deep in sin
But all that I knew was right then I could breathe again
I went right back to my thieving friends
And told them that I went to church for fun
But God has a plan to repurpose us
I guess that I was the first to come
Cuz God is where I get these verses from
And where I let go of my curses from
Had to let go of these spirits around me
Like never again will I worship them
Put down the blunt, let go of the lust
Deleted my photo vault off of my phone
Baby I'm praying for you by the day
Not even because I've been feeling alone
I ain't gon' say that I'm back yet but
I'm back on the track to the old jack
And Christ has brought me my old life, so
I been praying that he give you yours back

Written by:
Jack Yanagi

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