Emmanuel B - Demons

How do feel when you got no feelings?
All the demons in my head I feel like now they're just chilling
They were in my head so long I had to make a truce with them
They've been staying rent-free, feel they're my own children

9 times out of 10 I'll be doubting myself
In my head I know I'm great, but I feel like nobody cares
My last freestyle, felt like my friends weren't supporting enough
Maybe it was all in my head and I was expecting too much

Teni sat me down, like how many people do you think are your friends?
How many do you think really got your back till end?
For 10 seconds I was speechless
Then I hit him back like
Bro I always show love to people isn't fair that it comes back to me
He was like bro the audacity

I don't know who thought you about karma
But that's not how it works my g
It'll always come back, just not exactly how you think
Then he left the room
For 10 mins I was thinking
Does he make sense? am I just tripping
I got some questions I need answers
Like who checks up, on the person that checks up on everybody
If I make sure you're straight
Why do you wanna see me crooked?
I guess that's how life works
Expectations always lead to hurt
In my quest for love, still, I'll be blacking out my thoughts
If ever show you, love, I don't expect it in return
If comes cool, if it doesn't I'm fine too
And that's gon forever be my mood and I'm just sharing it with you
I had a full conversation when I was the only one in the room
It was just me, myself, and I forgot my demons too
I don't like to go out, I find joy in solitude

The mind of a rapper, constantly I'm conflicted
Sometimes there's love in my heart, other times I feel so wicked
I've burnt some bridges, that I would've never predicted
Once I try to make it work, then I don't ever regret it
Once it's burnt, it's burnt
What's the use of the ashes
I don't believe in sage, I already cool with my demons.
I mean I wrote you a letter, still, you couldn't read between the lines
I prayed for your success, but you wished for my demise
There's still love around here and the cup runneth over
Although I don't hear snakes, I can identify the cobra
If I hear any chitchat, I'll be preparing my bazooka

Thread carefully

Back to the main topic, I promise I won't stop it
I'll keep on dropping all these jewels till their jaws dropping
I'll keep inspiring the youth, doing it like it's nothing
What did you expect from a young king, who had nothing?
This is so easy for me, y'all call this working?
These times I was thinking my friends weren't supporting
But they were
So I'm so grateful for my girls and my guys
For even the babe at the party that said hi
Emmanuel, I know you, even though you don't know me
I heard your freestyles and honestly, you're so good
See Usually I'm shy, but I'm just saying it cus I'm high
Right there I was sober, but my head was in cloud nine

The best feeling is the feeling of being appreciated
For something, you put blood, sweat, and tears in
So thank you to everyone that ever listened
That felt the passion and pain in the music
You're the reason that I do this

A couple days after Teni and I had the conversation
I was on my bed just chilling or
Maybe watching Netflix or thinking about some new stocks I should invest in
This was about 4 am, so I think I slept off
Imagine how I felt when my bro Juwon woke me up
He said I just DMed Falz and he said he likes your stuff
Bro, I can't explain how I felt, but I know I was elated
A couple days ago I was the same guy that was frustrated
Can you see how life works, once you drop all your expectations
You can finally stop stressing and start counting all your blessings
This is for every single creative, whether you're a singer or dancer,
Makeup artist or rapper, graphic designer or photographer
Keep on doing your thing
In fact, add more pressure
A lot of people are watching
They might not all be talking
Some are secretly supporting
And if you ever feel stuck,
always remember this one that thing
You are one project away from blowing up

Emmanuel B.

Written by:
Emmanuel Bamidele

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