Heartsick - I Need Help

I'm about to talk about what's up in my dome
It's hard to speak, figured I'd let you all know
A couple years I've been fighting with my demons alone
They come to haunt when I'm asleep in the cold, like
When I'm asleep in the cold
That bar has sunken deeper than I'd wish you to know
I know I always talk in riddles Edward Nigma would solve
I'd just prefer to fake a grin but I don't Vincent van Gogh
If addiction ain't a sickness why am I sick and at home
Where the fuck are all my friends when I need 'em the most
Who the fuck you try'na kid? we're all in the same boat
And who the fuck are you to say that I don't love when you loath, like
Man these past couple months, I've been NOTHING but stressed
To top it OFF, I'm a mess, 'cause when you're DEAD, well you're DEAD
Swear the DEVIL is next, if it wasn't for this red I painted up on my head
I'd down a six but you know me too well
I'd down the six and then it's onto to the well
I drown in piss whatchu know about hell?
It's hard knowing I need help but having noone to tell
Yeah, I'm playing with death, no food in my gut, I'm a mess
I'm fucking depressed, drinking a six and popping a ferg
I swear that I'm fucked as it gets but y'all still call me a pest
And I remain with this stress,
Cause I remind myself of you and how we share an expense
And even though we share the pain well I was so fucking dense
Cause when you needed me the most I was busy with my next
It's like I'm hung from my neck, seems the only way to cope is to joke of these regrets, uh
And I'm still stuck with this debt, and all my actions ain't provided me with a means to an end
But I'm too drunk for this SHIT, I swear you only seem to call when I'm fucking throwing a FIT
So don't BLAME me when I'm mad 'cause you're intentions have changed a bit
I'm TIRED of pretending that you care 'cause I'm AFRAID TO QUIT

Written by:
Mathew O'Dwyer

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