H-Nine - Edge Of Insanity

I'll run away from the edge of insanity
Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me
I'm feeling anxious so please no don't stare at me
I'm talking straight you don't like my vulgarity
Don't mean to curse but no it's fucking part of me
Say it's okay but you look at me hardly
I ain't been this tied up in a second
Work to get my heart rate down but mind is never resting
Feeling like I'm losing everybody say I'm winning
I ain't crazy yet but know it's fucking in my vision
My reality's in waviness
I weirdly wanna savor this
I usually tend to aim and miss
And always end up throwing fits
I look in my distorted mirror
Voice in my head I can't hear her
Feet are small and head is bigger
I could paint a vivid picture
Seeing double like your sipping liquor
Fog around you like your cig is with ya
And a swisher
Emotional dysregulation
Think you're fine but you're mistaken
Speaking but my eyes are vacant
Never know my point of breaking
Till it's broken
The weed I smoke is potent
I'm posing while they pointing
Say I hope that you're enjoying
I'm floating like I'm buoyant
But these people all annoying
They hoping that you're holding
Lots a cash like you important
But you ain't shit but a stoner with anxiety
You ain't gonna be nothing else
As hard as you try to be
Maybe I should realize that I'm
The only one trying me
So stop acting like these problems
They just be finding me
I'm finally
Making realizations
Things that never quite made sense to me
Like math equations
And I always wanted answers because
I'm impatient
But now that I'm getting somewhere
It was worth the waiting
I'll run away from the edge of insanity
Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me
Say I need help but no I ain't no charity
Want me to change but no I do not care to be
Something I'm not yeah I like living carelessly
You not like me we don't got similarities
I ain't always been this fucking nervous
Used to be myself and not care much bout what the world is
But then shit started coming to the surface
Now I struggle just to find my inner self and what my worth is
It ain't always picture perfect
Pour a glass cuz I deserve it
I reflect against the surface
Just to try to find my purpose
Like a phone I'm out of service
I don't got none more
And now I'm drunk
And I'm wondering what I called for
This shit it hurts
Like your fingers in a car door
I'm at my worst
Say I'm okay but I'm not sure
It'd be a first
If you didn't think I'm lying
What the fuck you think I'm hiding
I'm not trying to be violent
Turning blue just like I'm violet
Cuz I said fuck air
Need that THC the O2 just don't compare
They say believe in me but I really just don't care
They may be onto me but I still be unaware
The way y'all waking up so peacefully is unfair
I don't dare
Take that for granted
Wanna sleep
But I can't stand it
Honestly
I cannot manage
Waking up
So empty handed
Light me up
Just like that backwood
Tell me sum
To make me feel good
Even if you're really lying
Please just try your best to hide it
I'll run away from the edge of insanity
Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me

Written by:
Hannah Klein

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