Sinner Alan - (Not) Worth It

I sat in the car and laughed to try and stop the crying
Maybe there was nothing I could do to stop you dying
Last summer hung in the air, I couldn't even imagine
This summer spent alone, bored with sin
Four walls, a blanket on the carpet
The moon through the window, an invisible target
I left my last life but you lingered in memoriam
Ask your friends how the fuck do I carry him
Gag from toxins cuz therapy couldn't save you
Can't hold a gun when I feel like you do
Knew for so long but I couldn't read ahead
Got me thinking about the taste of lead
Again, we didn't even have to talk about shit
Now I'm wondering who the fuck else gets it
Lashing out when I can't look within
Bearing the losses, hopeless for a win
See you in hell, I'll take longer to get there
Wonder if I even actually fucking care
An emptiness I'd be fucking girls to ignore
But I'm too proud to go hire a whore
There I go again on my own shit
Probably why you died, I couldn't crawl outta my own pit
Soon enough to help you out of yours
We go dancing through the doors
See me what I am, I want all your attention
Sell you out just for an honorable mention
I fucking miss you but I have to move on
Life gets so lonely but we have to stay strong
If all of this is true then I wish I was wrong
I couldn't do shit 'cept write you a song

Man, fuck you for robbing me of you

Who's gonna be there for me
When I tie the knot finally
Who's gonna chill with me
Replay Seiken Densetsu 3

Who's gonna talk with me
About philosophy
Who's gonna be a son to your father
When he's got nobody else to bother

Calendar frozen, but I lit a fuse
Take bad advice, how could I refuse
Find some stupid will, no reason
Watch the mutating change of season

Talk again, my old friend
I don't want to pretend
Broken heart ain't shit to me
I am fine mentally

Constructing what I'm feeling
Paint on my car is peeling
Broken body from the miles
Nothing but death and smiles

Written by:
Hua Lu

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