Mayvision - Subconscious Journey

I feel something is missing
Holes gotta digest
Memory fishing
I'll be back in a second
Or maybe a minute
We'll see I'm just checking
I will be removing the bullet
And I will be right back and
I'm lost I don't know where I am huh
Lost and I don't have a friend here
Across from the street I see her silhouet
She doesn't know that I stand here
Out here she is Lucy no matter what they call her
Shade on my city she plays with the city
They say she is a myth
But Mayvision is to so
Who are you to judge?
I see the shade of an old friend
He waving at me from across
But I don't trust him no chance
So I'm turning my back and I walk
For a mile or 20
Till a stranger approaches
Trine give him some money
But he wants my soul
I said fuck out my face
Fuck out my space
I'm seeking myself I don't want to be played
I'm searching for something till running is done
Don't wanna be hungry I wanna become
I said fuck out my face
Fuck out my space
I'm seeking myself I don't want to be played
I'm searching for something till running is done
Don't wanna be hungry I wanna become myself
Dokter Freud I'm not a boy
But still I feel a void that's coming form my childhood
I cannot deploy entirely cause society showing me
My call of duty is
Work remain quiet
Do your job build a box
Live in it, till you die, reincarnate
Next life
Same soul same story same sorrow
Guess that's just how it goes
And because this suppression is happening
I need to be sleeping
To see what's been keeping my spirit from breathing
I miss my old friends
And still miss the girl
Who did not leave my mind when she left from my world
I'm still afraid of dying
I'm scared of the mirror
I don't wanna age I hate to see my face
It's painful for now but when truth becomes clearer
One day I'll probably be okay
Right?
Bro she never liked you
You ain't shit dawg
No one fucks with you man
In your mind you're the hero sometimes
But you never will be the fucking hero
You are just looking for love and respect
That's a fucking shield that you carry but
Inside you're just fucking broken
Fucking broken
Demons gonna get you they're gonna haunt you
I can't leave the house when I'm sober
Cause my insecurities show
I can't breathe when I'm in a party
Conversations I don't really know
I'm too busy feeling retarded
I can't let anything go
I feel shook thru the whole evening
Cause of some stupid little joke
It has been like this since I'm 14
To you this is probably unknown
But no matter where I be physically
I'm still inside of my dome
That's why it's healthy for me
To spend some time on my own
Just to dig deep in my heart
And swim inside of my soul
I'm a shark on a mission
Hunting for some demonic fishes
I'll get em' in a minute don't even trip
Swimming like my life depends on it
Cause in reality that's exactly how it is
If I don't track down what's been keeping from me being me
Then the devil is gonna win
If I don't saturate my body and spirit quickly then
I will be lost within
And that's the only part that matters
Gotta make all of the particles flow together to get better
A memory OD is the diagnoses
And feelings of loneliness is the effect
Memories holding my head in a headlock
Got tension growing in my shoulder and back
Wait I think I see Lucy shhhh
Be quiet it's time to attack

Written by:
Tuur Mevis

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