J-RAA - The Bridge/Savior
Look at me stuck inside my head again, fuckSame old shit, this is where I always end up
Kill myself? I cannot escape the question
Where I'm at, there's no way that I remember
Stuck in a dark abyss
No I cannot repent
For all the sins I did
Ideas I rummage
Feelin' like there's no escape
In my mind I'm so empty
Who am I? Someone's renting
My whole life, need to vacate
But I think something's worse this time
Body shakin' I can't stop the cryin'
Feelin' my heartbeat from the outside
Lowest of the low, Tech 2009
Hope, all of it is gone
Nope, this is not Slipknot
Rope on my neck or nah?
Ope, got an idea
Somethin' that'll be a painless death I'm convinced
Off the bridge I'll lay my soul to rest, this is it
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
I just wanna die today
But I'm afraid
That someone's gonna try and help save me
I just wanna die today
To try and escape
From the demons in my head the home they made
This the final solution that'll fix it all
Picturin' myself inside my crystal ball
Takin' itty bitty steps up until I fall
Down onto the road, gon' be dead before I crawl
Ain't nobody gonna come for me
I will rest in peace
Bystanders are watchin' from their seats
They cannot believe
Anything they see before their eyes
They are petrified
Police comin' to assess the crime
"Guys please step aside"
Real life I'm snappin' back
Dark thoughts still havin' that
My soul is cracked in half
Don't know what happens after
But I don't really give no fucks
Hop inside my car and I slam the do' shut
School I'm skippin'
No thought given
Speedin' down the highway
Bridge I'm driven
No more livin'
Lemme end it my way
On a mission
Think I'm trippin'
Hesitation hardly
Mind is driftin'
No stop listen
This the end of my days
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
I just wanna die today
But I'm afraid
That someone's gonna try and help save me
I just wanna die today
To try and escape
From the demons in my head the home they made
Standin' on the edge
Waitin' to be dead
No more tears to shed
My life grade an F
Finally all this bullshit will be done and over
No more bein' looked at like an ogre
Ain't no way that my demise gon' be covert
I can see the pearly gates gettin' closer
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
Yeah we goin' down
I just wanna die today
But I'm afraid
That someone's gonna try and help save me
I just wanna die today
To try and escape
From the demons in my head the home they made
Wakin' up on that Thursday mornin'
Gettin' outta bed and I'm stretchin' and I'm yawnin'
I'ma check my phone, normally it's not important
Open up my messages, oh look it's from the homie
What do I see?
What will it be?
I cryptic message from the bro
"I can't do this anymo'"
What do I say?
What did he mean?
How I respond I don't know
Is this outta my control?
Gettin' frantic
Start to panic
Fuckin' dammit
Feelin' manic
Text him back like "What's goin' on? You good?"
Heart attack, no response
I don't know what's goin' on
Turnin' on my noti' sound
Think I know what's goin' down
This ain't my first trip around
That old suicidal town
I can feel my hands
Start to shake up
Does he have a plan
To never wake up?
Mind of a young man
Is it made up?
Is this when my friend
Really gave up?
Askin' myself questions that I do not know the answer to
Hopin' this ain't the day that my best friend ends up on the news
This can't be where it all ends
Some options not exhuasted
I'm so scared to be honest
If you die I'm so sorry
And I know it's all my fault
He gave up screamin' "Uncle"
In my body feel a rumble
I have never felt so awful
Thank God
I got a text back
Oh fuck
This is really bad
Says he's at a bridge and he's boutta jump down
Fear still settin' in, I don't what I'm about
To do to save his life today
I knew that he is not okay
But soon I'll have a price to pay
To you if I can't find a way
For you to survive, gotta keep you on the line
Can't run outta time, I won't let you take yo life
Wakin' up my mom, boutta turn that old car on
Sittin' in the front tryna learn yo location
On my way tryna save you
In your head I'ma break through
On the bridge we will race to
911 on the way soon
Dodgin' cars there's some traffic
No response, yo what happened?
Hope I'm not talkin' past tense
When I think of you laughin'
Finally we made it
I just ran outta patience and my mind is racin'
I can see you standin' over there on the edge
Hoppin' out the car and get some air, catch my breath
Cops already arrived at the scene
God must be on my side and it seems
That he's gonna comply
I just wanna run by
Give him a big hug, cry
Help him see the sunshine
But I can't
Police gonna take him to place
That's a safe haven
Was this the right thing to do? I don't know
But his safety I'ma choose, that's fo' sho'
Thank you for stayin' with us
I know that life is real tough
We will make it together
Here's one thing to remember
So much love comin' your way
We want you to be okay
Depression there is no shame
Call for help never go away
Written by:
Jacob Rau
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