Papa Jay - Behind Every Smile

Its 6 30 am damn time to
Scrape my body off this cold
And lonely bed
The sun is creeping but its dark
And foggy in ma head
I feel my chest tightening at the
Thought of facing this day with
Sadness putting my social skills
To the test theres no rest you
Couldnt catch me happy even
At my best
Co workers welcome my
Presence so i smile put on my
Mask whilst trying to untangle
My mess
Stress builds as i drag my soul
Through a battle that has been
Fought since the day that i left
My nest
History of war crimes scarred
Every member of my family
What the fuck you think was
Going to happen
Anyway its time to act cool
Straight face a couple of pills
And im chilled no im not look
At Steve and his stupid ass face
What the fuck is he so happy
About
Im here struggling to
Understand why i feel all this
Doubt
A sadness so deep that it inflicts
Pain with each breath a
Tiredness that i could sleep in a
Dark alley awaiting for my
Death damn its true i could
Sleep in this alley and wait for
Death

Its one more life one more Perspective behind every smile
Theres a fountain of tears and
As the years pass we become Radioactive
Tell me your story ill listen
Attentive
Theres no need to be over
Protective im right fukn here
Hold my hand hold it tight
Keep your chin up warrior this
Isnt the end of your fight
Right here right now stand
Your motherfucking ground
Your not alone just check your Peripheral trust me it will be
Your worthwhile and together
We can tell the story
Behind every smile

Holy fuck im fucked up cunt
Pass me the redbull and the rest
Of that blunt im bout to leave
Get some more weed anything
You need or you wanna go
Halfies on a point and we can
Toke until we tweek
Who cares if its the middle of
The week dont be a bitch
Fucking maggot i knew yous
Were a faggot did ya scrape the
Rest of the resin from the bong
Ah shit its on i walk through
This streets with trackies and Thongs
Cant tell the difference between Fucked up and wrong
That sweet smell is inhaled and
God himself grazes his fingers
Through hell
Couldnt give a fuck if i was the
Devil or just an angel that fell
To many titles i think i should
Be left alone to rock the bellz
Like LLcool J ima fuck bitches
Till i posses pimp status like
BigL we can go toe to toe and
Watch both our knuckles swell
Ok you wanna stare at my
Cigarette burns on my shirt its
Just what happens when you go
On a bender for weeks and fall Asleep randomly dont look at
Me look at the ground heres
Your panties pussy dont make
Me get Benji out leave a nice
Hole in your chest bury you
Down south whooo you didnt
Hear it from my mouth

Its one more life one more
Perspective behind every smile Theres a fountain of tears and
As the years pass we become Radioactive
Tell me your story ill listen
Attentive theres no need to be
Over protective im right fukn
Here hold my hand hold it tight
Keep your chin up warrior this
Isnt the end of your fight
Right here right now stand
Your motherfucking ground
Your not alone just check your Peripheral trust me it will be
Your worthwhile and together
We can tell the story
Behind every smile

Im scared this world seems so Messed up how did i think it
Would be ok to bring a child
Into this rugged hub i look at
His innocent eyez and
Everything seems ok for the Moment background noise
Starts to blend in and i
Remember that im frozen my Husband is drunk again hes
Ranting about the life he has
Chosen he has alot of
Insecurities ive heard him plead
In his nightmares i guess
Growing up in public housing
Has a toll on the mind but its
No excuse to abuse hit and
Destroy for amusement i dont
Even remember how it all
Changed i guess it came out in
Small spurrs until one day i was Laying on my back with his
Hands wrapped around my
Neck ready to attack he got mad Because i gave him juice instead
Of his beer but he was so drunk
He could hardly steer oh thats
Right he drove us home after
He forced me to buy more
Alcohol because they wouldnt
Sell it to him yea he was being
An asshole i wanted to leave so Many times but he would sway
Me with his smooth rhymes Claiming he would change and
That he would always be mine i Guess from always having
Nothing to someone telling me
I have something is what they
Call a jedi mind trick i always Wanted to study pshycology
But dropped out pregnant year 10 Term 4 week 3 and now the
Final chapters of my life are
Edging closer people ask me all
The time how do you keep that Glorious smile i blush and wish
I had an answer but honestly i
Just believe my problems are Insignificant compared to
Others
He struck my face i cant even
Feel my left side anymore it just Feels heavy and swollen i told
Him to be careful with lil
Charlie i guess i shouldnt have Spoken now my body is bloody
And broken he now wants to
Hit Charlie but i cover him up
With every ounce of strength
That i have im sorry baby i
Messed up as he continues to
Hit me he blames us and tells us
That its our fault ive never felt
So alone and as his wrath reigns Sound becomes distorted and i
Hear in the background a
Familiar song and i hear and i
Hear
Tell me your story ill listen
Attentive theres no need to be
Over protective im right fukn
Here hold my hand hold it tight
Keep your chin up warrior this
Isnt the end of your fight
Right here right now stand
Your motherfucking ground
Your not alone just check your Peripheral trust me it will be
Your worthwhile and together
We can tell the story
Behind Every Smile

Written by:
Josue Jimenez

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