Prxdigy - If only you knew

Don't know what to say, looked to god and prayed
Demons in my head and they fucking up my day
Apologetic to my family cuz I'm pushing them away
Close my eyes and fight it back just lemme smoke my pain away
Mentally unstable and it's fuckin' up my brain
I try to fight him back, but he's just better in every way
My pride won't let me call them and its hurting everyday
My family's not the problem I can't loosen up that chain
Look into my soul, look into my eyes
You can see I'm holding back when I'm fighting back my pride
Gotta keep that tunnel vision but it's fucking up my stride
But I know I'm making charts and I'll bring them for the ride
Can you feel the pain?
Can you feel the flow?
I know my uncles with me when I'm puttin' on a show
He told rap my feelings, and he told me imma grow
When I'm in my feelings I just pick a beat and flow
Can someone please be my friend?
Before its starts to hurt again
If only you knew, If only you knew
Pick a beat and flow, pick a beat and grow
I put the pen away cuz I know I can't be the goat
I'm hiding all my pain, my demons got me by the throat
I wish there was a way so I could tell you how it goes
Oh wait I gotta mic, oh wait I know to rhyme
I know it's in my blood so tell me why I am wasting time
I feel I'm being watched I think I'm crazy, out my mind
I know they talk about me, think I'm deaf or maybe blind?
I know I'm not okay, just wanna run away
Smoking all this weed cuz it just takes the pain away
I smoke until I'm better, but I feel it anyway
My momma taught me to do better, he had other plans for me
I ain't telling what is wrong, listen to my songs
I ain't putting any effort, think my older self is gone
What am I doing wrong, if y'all sing along
Y'all can feel my pain, and maybe learn that I'm not strong
Can someone please be my friend
Before its starts to hurt again
If only you knew, If only you knew

Written by:
Christopher Aguilar

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