Escape the Stake - Nihilism Is Overrated

I feel like this isn't my real life
I think that real life will happen when this body dies
They'll put me in the ground, maybe I'll turn into a tree
And I won't hurt anybody and I won't care when they hurt me
When Pat said 'we're all compost in training', I didn't think that would ring so true
But I'm sick and tired of sitting here overthinking
I won't kill myself, but that don't mean I don't want to
'Cause I kinda want to

I think nihilism is overrated
And I have to believe there's some meaning in this
But I realize the shit I say sounds jaded
But the truth is, I never asked to exist
And I don't want this
I never wanted this
I don't want this, and I'm sick and tired of all this shit

I still think there's a curse on my head
And I used to have someone who made me less scared of it
But every sweet thing I have turns rotten
I don't know why I expected any more than this
Spread me like a feast, turn me into a garden
Let the foxes eat my flesh, grow some ferns with my bones
When I am everything and nothing
Maybe I'll finally be happy and I'll finally be home

But I think nihilism is overrated
And I have to believe there's some meaning in this
But I realize the shit I say sounds jaded
But the truth is, I never asked to exist
And I don't want this
I never wanted this
I don't want this, and I'm sick and tired of all this shit

I used to think I would die like Inman
Up on a mountain, surrounded by love
But I don't think that's in the cards I was given
I might be on a mountain, but I think I'll be alone
When I let go of this
When I leave all of this
I'll try and wait for it, but I'm tired of all this shit

Written by:
Jada Rose Kitts

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