Percy Bluu - Growing Pains

I still got anxiety, that's why I keep it on me
Sometimes I feel I can't trust no one around me
There's another side of me but I ain't even show it
Cause I got way too many people eating off me
Been through depression and I learned my lessons
So I count my blessings and run it up
I still got anxiety, that's why I keep it on me
Sometimes I feel I can't trust no one around me
Cause I got anxiety
Cause I got anxiety
Yeah, lost the only two girls I've ever loved
That's on me, I fucked it up
Was supposed to be who you trust
I never put the "U" in us
I was selfish, I know I was
Renee, I hope you love again
I hope you grow and get close to someone that you can trust again
Someone that gets to know your inner soul and what its color is
I pray he wipes the tears away you cry because of what I did
Honestly, I wish your family blessings in abundances
I should've saw this coming 'cause I'm prone to self-destructiveness
Spent a lot of nights mixing up Jack and the Coke
I've got anxiety, you've seen how it gets out of control
I started drinking as a way to medicate and to cope
Getting faded off the rum and the dro
Been toking Backwoods tryna ground myself, been sparking the oaks
Even days when I was sober, I was lost in the smoke
Lord, forgive me for my sins
I've been tryna make amends
I lust and I'll lust again
I fucked and I'll fuck again
Fucking up my friendships
I've been burning bridges, purposefully distant
I'm ashamed off who I was, 'cause who I was I isn't
But I know they insist that I'm that man still
Quarter life has gone by, I feel at a stand still
I'm 25 and what I got to show for it
Got a whip I can't afford and I can't even chauffeur it
Got two digits in my checking, what I'm supposed to do for her
It's been months since Cynthia and I just can't get over it
Even after all that happened, I just want you happy
Would've given you my life without you even asking
Can't believe the way I acted and how I reacted
Should've known the universe would never let it happen
And even if you truly loved me, we were both too young
I done fantasized and fell in love with who you won't become
I was hopelessly romantic, 17 and dumb
Guess I never grew up out of that
Growing pains made me, ain't the same, I'm proud of that
Say thank you for me to your mama
Was a constant through the problems
Mama's wise and never wrong
Cam, you said it yourself
I wish you well
Mille Mille, take good care of yourself
Bluu
There's a lot of things I wanna say, but there's a lot of things better left unsaid
I will say, I'm sorry for the way I hurt you
I sat around for months waiting for you to call
I think it's time to get a move on with my life
Take care

Written by:
Grant Robertson

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