Realitay - Doomed

I really don't wanna be alive I feel trapped in and there's no place to hide
I always feel this sense of panicking
I know it's cause my minds over examining
Yep the world around me don't feel real
I'm in a cage inside myself if only I could feel I'm to real
When I jump on a track
I spit my own truth and I keep writing facts
I'm feeling like my body is a prison
Trust me you would never want to be in this position
My vision
Undescribable is my vision
Up late writing raps I think that is the right decision
Sometimes I crash and I burn
Everyday I'm hoping that my old self returns
Everyday I'm hoping that this misery will turn
If only I was normal with my brain not stern
Suicidal thoughts are creeping in
I wanna die but then I pick myself back up again
But then I think about my life
I think about the failure and I think about the times
That I used to be so bright
But now my mental health is sinking low I have to fight
I wonder if music will save me
I wonder if people think I'm going crazy
I wonder if I'll be alright
I wonder if I'll find a girl that will stand by my side
See my brain won't stop ticking
I can't believe I put my self in this position
My anxious thoughts have got me freaking out
I'm always tired that's why it's hard to function now
Wow I never thought that I would be like this
I've lost half my friends it's sad but that's just how it is
Searching for answers on my iPhone
Feeling doomed as I suffocate in my room
No where did my motivation go
I used to be so drivin now my brain won't stop the trippin
I've gone back to that green stuff
It makes me fucking loopy but I love the buzz bruz
I can't stand the thought of nine to five
But saying that I can't stand the thought of living life
Why do I never feel alive
If only I could feel the world around me I would cry
I am always paranoid about a stupid thought
Like is that bar good nah we have to re record
I know it's cause I'm a perfectionist
I wish I wasn't I wish I could just stress less
Mess has the same meaning as my world
Imma take all my pain and create my wealth

Written by:
Taylor Ramsdale

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