H3istMan - Time To Myself

Please, need time to myself
I'm living deep in hell

Sometimes I think about the people I used to go to school with
They look at me now, thinking how did this man do this
I downplay it, saying this ain't really crazy
Went from one hundred and 10 to 90 kg
Not wasting my time, that ain't that easy
But why do I feel like the world they still hate me
I don't wanna yell like a grown up baby
But I don't wanna walk into war with no gun and cry for safety

Back track a few years ago I got a girlfriend
She wasted my time, I wasn't learnin
How to look after myself without another person
All my problems, after we broke up, they would worsen
Leading to drugs

The money it wasted my life
People lookin down in strife
They need to wake up
They need to face the
Challenge that they've been placed on
Served up by nature
They forget now and be my friend later
It's too late like Darth Vader
You're not my friend just an invader
It seems like your behaviours
Has let you turn into a hater
Sit back in your chair, you've become a stranger
I'm losing my self worth to these drugs

Please, need time to myself
I'm living deep in hell
Please don't know where to go
It's like I'm lost and can't grow

Drugs are a mystery, part of history
There's no pro or con sheet
Come on, you gotta get down on the ground and bow on to your knee
Forget god, these drugs are what you worship now
You think I'm getting angry
Yeah thats right, you've forsaken your spiritual life
Say goodbye to future kids and your wife
All these lyrical words add meaning and cleaning to your critical mind

Critical mind
Critical mind
How do I get out of these physics of mine yea,
Physics of mine
Physics of mine
Can I get off of this feeling in time before I'm committed by the crime
Left to rot in the grime

Sometimes I can rap fast
Until enough time has passed
I can think of the people I can outlast
As much as I can be an outcast
I would love to spit on a podcast
Can you put me on so I can rant past
All the people that are part of my past
And they get scary and they think I harassed
It ain't the toothfairy, I just amassed

The inner demons that I surpassed over the Last two years fairly I'm not the cast
From that gassed conjuring series
If I ever get punched in the kidneys

Or there's illnesses coming down my chimneys
I won't blame it on those devil theories
I won't let those rumours come near me
I won't destroy the progress I have so easy
In fact, should I forget that period of my life completely

No I shouldn't!
Mistakes got me there
Don't you dare tell me the devil left me there
If he exists, there's excuses for everybody everywhere
Take responsibility if you wanna make repairs

Please, need time to myself
I'm living deep in hell
Please don't know where to go
It's like I'm lost and can't grow

Please
Please
Save me from this hell

Written by:
Jacob Huisman

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