Ruggo - Excuses

I kept my childlike innocence with how I look
But in my head it's an inner glimpse of coward, shook
I struggled all my life with constant curiosity
Sometimes it worked for good but other times it haunted me
Awkwardly talking to people that offered me honesty
Took it and ran with it with no apology
And later come to feel disgusted with the fact that none of it bothered me
I could see my inner evil try to take my whole body
I've tried to, triangulate it, isosceles
All I see's my discipline go down a spiraling path
Felt like the only thing to do was just to hide it and laugh
But now and then I feel it trying to come back
Could never grasp it though
Feels like I'm weak and operating with like half my soul
I told my girl about this, she said that she glad to know
Maybe it's something I can't overcome all on my own
Maybe that's the reason why we can't live all alone
I could've blamed my bad behavior on the fact that my dad wasn't home
But chose to own up to mistakes like a man trying to grow
Lately forgot the way to handle my wrongs
Fuck

I'm trying to be a better me
But the laziness of working for it blinding what I see (Oh)
I'm trying to change the way I am
But it's hard to overcome the hermit habits that I have (Oh, God)
Feels like I'm trapped inside my ways
Like I'm never going to change
Ignorant to my mistakes (Oh)
So fucking easy to be acting clueless
It's so damn easy to make up excuses

Mmm
It's so damn easy to make up excuses
It's so damn easy to make up excuses

I took a lot of time off to see if I still felt the same about the music
So many days I thought that I ain't want to do it
Like it's something of an obligation
Hit with writer's block, like I ain't got the heart to say shit
And all the while so many people asking when I'm dropping
Man that shit was hard for patience
Wanted to tell them keep waiting, 'cause I ain't making shit
Just want to leave it all and dip
Went on a trip, came back harder with inspiration
I saw a daughter in my dreams
Hit with fatherhood and seen that it's no time for me to make excuses
I woke up crying trying to understand it
Knowing that if I had a seed, I'd probably never manage
My parents ain't abandon me, they made it fucking work
I guess it all just comes to pressure and the way it hurts
Could let it swallow you quick
And come up with a reason why you ain't achieve what you needed
Man that's some fucking weak shit
I'm trying to overcome the hills everyday
Working for it and moving forward each step that I take
I can't complain, could only fix what I break
No more excuses just decisions to change (Uh)

I'm trying to be a better me
But the laziness of working for it blinding what I see (Oh)
I'm trying to change the way I am
But it's hard to overcome the hermit habits that I have (Oh, God)
Feels like I'm trapped inside my ways
Like I'm never going to change
Ignorant to my mistakes (Oh)
So fucking easy to be acting clueless
It's so damn easy to make up excuses

Damn
It's so damn easy to make up excuses
It's so damn easy to make up excuses

Written by:
Ryan Sheerer

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