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Sometimes I look in pride when I look at me
Sometimes I miss the old me
Lately I been driving by myself at night
I know I should be at home but where is home to me

Nights out trynna catch up getting disappointing
Like what you doin where you working now man this shits annoying
I'm still working out a tough situation where I missed the point and
It's keeping me from trynna move forward man I see the finish trynna move toward it
I put everything I had to lose toward it, cuz I didn't think that i could lose for it
I thought I had it figured out but life like I got news for ya
I was wrong, like so wrong that I told you so was even told wrong
Like I really thought this would fill the void I'm still walking round like my soul gone

I needed guidance's, but I thought I just needed finances
I weighed the pros and the cons with the plusses and minuses
But I wanted timelessness
Time edges always ever closer, while the windows open
Past tense so far back then I don't even know if happened

I don't even know what you asking im passing, I can even answer your question
I didn't come here to make a commitment, I came here to make an impression
I see that I made it on ya, put a dream inside you then I skated on ya
Is it even really my fault cuz you couldn't say I never waited on ya
I told you I had you forever no matter whatever shouldn't have did that
Ended up having to focus attention on me i hope you forgive that
I really hope you get a big stack and I really hope you get your kids back
Hard times take a big chunk of your self-esteem with no give back
And it's so sad but I ain't shed a tear in like 7 years
I've aged well getting paid well went through straight hell Makin heaven here
Lost more friends than I'll ever make and I don't miss em they was never there
Can't hurt me if I don't let it, if I never cared so I never cared
So over here at my own table feet propped over every chair
I don't need nobody dinning wit me if you really ain't wit it ain't riding wit me
Lookin back it's really twenty twenty I can see it all without a blurry pixel
Y'all in a hurry to get on the road all alone well I'm in a hurry with you

I needed guidance's, but I thought I just needed finances
I weighed the pros and the cons with the plusses and minuses
But I wanted timelessness
Time edges always ever closer, while the windows open
Past tense so far back then I don't even know if happened

The person I mentioned is no longer with us, and I'm in the dirt with her
I did what what I could I tried what I know it didn't work wit her
I'm in a spot that I couldn't explain, give me a table of faces of feelings I'd pick the one Just lookin plain
I can't even talk about my pain
I have exhausted everybody I could talk with
Up and down its got me nauseous
Awfully cautious of anybody I could love
Cuz I don't think I wanna love you again
We could prolly only fuck and be friends
Cuz I ain't bout to be this fucked up again
I ain't bout to be attached to woman I love and have to give hugs to her friends
Trynna be the one to lean on, when I'm leaning on a fuckin see saw
My heart don't even beat, zombie on my feet I feel like i been in a free fall
If I told you that I'm angry at her would you understand or would I be wrong
I guess that when I wrote a song about her never thought it end up one of these songs
I started this when we was breaking up so the way I felt I just resented her
Now I'm here with all these open questions all this idle time I coulda given her
I swear it's a roller coaster, it's a roller coaster

Written by:
CHRISTOPHER HAGUE, JOEL WHITE

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