London Steel - Lose My Mind

Only the Lord knows that I can't let go
In my bed is the way I cope
In my sleep I lose control
No
But I'll lose my mind gotta few screws loose that i'll find
Something to swat like a moth in my sight
Can't get close cause I
Got a chip on my shoulder and I got a short fuse
Don't know why I wish I do
Angry all the time I can't let loose
I say what's on my mind
Only if I knew
I'm lost and confused thoughts are consumed
numb to the truth i'm stuck in a loop
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to choose
I don't know how to lose
I care about money and fame
I care about making a name
I care about what other people think
I care about things that I shouldn't care about
Yeah I think I need a change
Yeah I think I need a
Where did the time go right out the window
but what do I know
I don't
I said where did the time go right out the window
but what do I know
I don't
Too hard on myself they say I overthink everything
I'm pretty sure I felt the same
Lost in my thoughts all day
I need to give my head some space
Tryna hear the difference between God and me
But all the voices sound the same
Unless God ain't speak
A war inside my head
A fox-hole in brain
I'm MIA
Missing inter-action distant from my family
Slipping losing traction absent from reality
Just a bad habit
Mixed with a few bad tendencies
I I guess
What scares me the most is
Not hearing God even though I know He spoke
It's hard to listen close when you don't know where to focus
Hard to stay afloat when you don't know where the coast is
Hoping waiting for the moment
Looking for direction in the middle of the ocean
Tryna be obedient not to do it by my own sense
Oh
This makes no sense
No
But i'll be waiting on you
To answer all the prayers I prayed upon you
Every day I lift my face up to pray and undo
Yet every night I lay my head down debating the truth
Cause i'm lost and confused thoughts are consumed
numb to the truth i'm stuck in a loop
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to choose
I don't know how to lose
But I'll lose my mind gotta few screws loose i'll find
Something like a knife to siphon my life
Can't get close cause I
Got a chip on my shoulder and I got a short fuse
Don't know why
I wish I do
Angry all the time
I can't let loose
I say what's on my mind
Only if I knew
Only I know that
I got a few screws loose of my own
I got a few bedrooms I call home
I got a few reasons to let go
But I can't let go
But I can't let go

Written by:
London Apple

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