xfenixx - put on hold

(No, no, no, no, no)
(No, no no)
Diseases and demons
What is this state of mine?
Traversing these feelings
I might just lose my mind
I've been staying up late praying for this pain
To go away
I've been put on hold, guess I gotta wait
Guess I gotta turn the page
Guess I gotta wait for better days, better days
Started in college
With pain I couldn't manage
Exhausted with all this
Fell behind with the work, couldn't catch up
Had to lay in bed and act tough (Act tough)
Ay it wasn't working, I was hurting
I had to drop out
Had to find out why it all started now
My life (My life)
Trying to figure it (Trying to)
Can't sleep at night, I don't feel right, I'm not ok
Diseases and demons
What is this state of mine?
Traversing these feelings
I might just lose my mind
I've been staying up late praying for this pain
To go away
I've been put on hold, guess I gotta wait
Guess I gotta turn the page
Guess I gotta wait for better days, better days
(Okay)
Needles in my head
Trying different meds
Constantly in bed (Constantly)
Ay, ay, ay
Trying different meds
I don't leave my bed
I don't (No no)
I don't miss you, all you did was ruin my rest
I don't hate you, but I hate this illness
We've been done
But this pain I am feeling
Can't escape, what's inside of me is killing (Killing)
What is happening?
(I'm so tired and I don't understand any of this
Fuck man)
(Okay)
Okay, been a year and a half
Been in so much pain I can't laugh
Countless medicines in the trash
Insomnia, fatigue
I'm restless even in my dreams
What has this illness done to me?
(What has it done?)
It's amplified my anxiety
Hope it doesn't take my life from me
From me
Staying up late
Praying for this pain to go away, put on hold

Written by:
Carson Bodie

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