Camila Colominas - If I Make it to 21

I've bottled all my pain
Now I wear it like a smile
Trying to remember
What it's like to be a child
I miss my innocence
When I was daddy's little girl
But he was ripped right from my fingertips
Codependent on
All of my friends
Don't know if I can be alone
I know they'll leave me in the end
My own sister wont even listen
To the words I have to say
A disappointment to my mom
But at least I know she will stay
Now I'm 19 pushing onto 20
Pray to God that I can make it
But Lord knows I can't fake it
I just wanna see my dad
Hate the person that I am
If I'm meant to be alone
Then I can't see it to the end
Don't know how to change
All the parts I hate about myself
Feel like I can't reach out
So I drown in all my emptiness
Pick up all my pieces
Cause I can't let them see
That I'm broken on the inside
If I make it out to 21
Know that I fought through the pain
And I drove myself insane
I just wanna feel okay
Being who I am
If I can't accept myself
Then I will never be accepted
By the rest of the world
I know it shouldn't matter
But it always hurts
Why does everyone leave ?
No one cares about me
They all know I'll be here
Any second that they need me
Going through changes
All by myself
Don't wanna end up alone
But I just wont ask for help
Will they be proud of me ?
No im not asking for no sympathy
If I make it out to 21
Know that I fought through the pain
And I drove myself insane
I just wanna feel okay
Being who I am
If I can't accept myself
Then I will never be accepted
By the rest of the world
I know it shouldn't matter
But it always hurts
Why does everyone leave ?
No one cares about me
They all know I'll be here
Any second that they need me

Written by:
Camila Colominas

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