J. Oso - Closed Eyes

Had to clear out the dirt so the dust could settle
The damage that won't be covered by the incidentals
The strangers are growing stranger
And my pockets settle way too many problems that I have
And I get sentimental
About the youth that I withheld, that I'm withholding
I wear this hat alone, it's just me and Holden
I must be broken
What I speak it comes to life
I must have misspoken
Have I been gone from home too long?
Spent my last coupon?
Set my last suit on?
Conversations had over udon
Reminds me that she's got more soul than Busan
But I been feeling drained
Couple days pass, I don't feel okay
Am I still okay?
I've been sick down to my stomach then it goes away
When I write, when I clear my head
I fear the unimportant, I'm not fearing the dead
Feeling upset, and underfed
Some things are better off un-un-un
Unseen and less traveled
I'm baffled
By how my nights seem to unravel
I do not know any of you
And I don't know anyone here at all
I must have been wrong
You've told me I do not belong
I get it, I've heard it, move on
Remove me from all the group texts that I'm on
So be it, so long
I been in this for the long term thrill of the ride
I been witness to the greatness that I'm putting aside
I've been changing by the minute and I push to provide
I've been waiting my turn in line but they push me aside
Long as I can keep my confidence up
Long as I can break out of the shell I'm in
Confidential things that I'm working on
And doors left unopened that I'm breaking in
Pretty soon I gotta take a breather
Get a text that says "come to my table I got somebody you'll want to meet"
But I don't want to meet her
She'll be yanking on my chain like I'm Derek Jeter
I need a solo vacation
Ditch a phone, decide to hike across Appalachia
Write a letter just to tell her that I'm no longer anxious
I've just been sitting, waiting, sitting, waiting
And my time is rapidly nearing
Delusions of grandeur
I'm losing my hearing
The vision grows stronger
The thought of them cheering
The boy that you called unappealing
Ripping throats and doing shows and I shatter the ceiling
Who am I to question myself?
Put it all on blast, impressing myself
People from my past, they feel what I felt
When they hearing this, but I don't know their whereabouts
I live a life that most would envy
I'm growing out of your league
What if I'm not ready?
I heard you gotta kill what you eat
But still they begging me to end this shit
Like what do you mean?
I been getting just so much better
Are you jealous of me?
Closed eyes
And blind faith
And Soda, and Bombay
And no sign of stopping
Reverse down the highway
Co-sign from Sosa
I grow wiser, by day
I'm profiled and profound
And stay grounded my way
Closed eyes
And blind faith
And Soda, and Bombay
And no sign of stopping
Reverse down the highway
Co-sign from Sosa
I grow wiser, by day
I'm profiled and profound
And stay grounded my way
O.

Written by:
Justin Schulman

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