Rayner G. - Try To Remember

It doesn't matter what kind of growth I achieve, man
I always get in my way
The closer you get to the light
The greater your shadow becomes, right
I'mma look inward
To find all the pieces
I've broken up off of myself
Threw on the floor
And swept underneath me
Been feeling like Genie
I got all this magic inside of me
But I'm still cuffed by my past judgements
Digging through years of my mind's luggage
Man, I release it
I don't even need it
Out here, I'm guilting myself when I'm supposed to be focused on healing
The things you don't deal with
Don't do disappearing
They get in the way when you tryna forgive
And understand feelings
Yo, let's dig
What is reason why
I think I be dealing fine
I mean, I try just to listen
Not to defend my positions, sigh
Yo, there I go again slipping
My rhythm don't match my vision, right
Steadfast when my fist is tight
But not everything is a fight
I try to remember
That I'm not the center
Cause when I be hurting
My heart freezes over
Like flow in December
I become the aggressor
Whenever there's pressure
You judging my worth
Well I don't need closure
I'm quick with the temper
Hey
But reset all my sensors
And all that there gets prevented
I'm climbing up on a search
Where I can refine all my methods
For defeating my dementors
Them demons beating me senseless
Care not for me and my presence
They just always leave me with messes
General consensus
Is that
They could never take what's mine
They could never cross that line
Anything I chase I know that I'll find
Investing all my energy and every dime
I keep using deep breaths to relieve stress
Dont need much when that beat hits
It's the only way that I keep holding space myself when it's something that I'm needing
I stand in my dark
Hands on my heart
Examine the parts
That I try to ignore
Sure
I'm handling broad
Family charged
Baggage I brought
I wont keep any more
Stored
I am radically
Not mismanaging
Feeling fear but taking action
When I jump
I might not know exactly how
but I know I'm landing and
I try to remember
That I'm not the center
Cause when I be hurting
My heart freezes over
Like flow in December
I become the aggressor
Whenever there's pressure
You judging my worth
Well I don't need closure
I'm quick with the temper
Whoa
But why do I become somebody I don't want to talk to
When feelings start to own me. I try hard not to be partial
I just can't seem to let go of this anger in my heart
Too involved with how it makes me hurt to notice I'm at fault
Oooh
Responsible for how I hate
I can't shake
All this weight
Much too used to bottling up all the words I'd never say
But I won't make
That mistake
I'mma speak the things I think
If I got a problem with you I'mma say it to your face
And that's just baseline
I can't
Take no less won't tolerate
Any lower level frequencies from me
As I relate
See I don't flake
I negate
Chase the vibe I propagate
Though my mind is primed with lines I rhyme
I tell myself the same
I try to remember
That I'm not the center
Cause when I be hurting
My heart freezes over
Like flow in December
I become the aggressor
Whenever there's pressure
You judging my worth
Don't be judging my worth, no

Written by:
Rayner Garranchan

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