Beanie Mike - Dear Diary

Tell me is it possible to write away the demons inside of me
They say choose your battles, I decide to fight silently
Little bits of jealousy, anger, depression, even anxiety
That come together, try to block my vision entirely
I never let it
I'll be damned if you do and then tell me you're okay with it
Between the beats I built a world of bars, so you know that Imma live in it
Mornings where I didn't make my bed but at night I still laid in it
Just be yourself, everybody plays the game different
All these different ways to learn all the same lessons
The less you look the more you see, you just gotta listen
And I listen a lot
This is when you give it your all and people see it, appreciate it
Turn around and say you're missing a spot
When you give someone a present and they hope it's something cooler than it is
Just be grateful there's a gift in the box
I tell myself I'm in my head cause I don't know if I'm not
I know I gotta let the people rock
Instead of begging they were rocking out to me
These the type of verses I write that I should probably start with dear diary
It sound fire to you but it's dire to me
Fear inside of me that people lie to me when they're tired of me
Avoiding telling me the truth that I deserve to hear
Sometimes the progress feels like seven years
Other times it feels like seven days
I hate comparing my art to others and still do it
Me and my ignorant ways
I'm only 20 yet somehow feel like I'm doing it wrong
I had a vision that I hit a thousand views on a song
Milestones I have yet to reach
Meanwhile sitting on a pile of unreleased
Making records that hold tremendous meaning to me
Tengu telling me to drop a single every week
Math3w telling me to be the change I wanna see
Paid attention to the details, needed a receipt
A picky eater, I don't ever wanna taste defeat
I'd rather lay the path out let people follow me than stare at my phone screen and care about who follows me
Life is too short for that crap
Woke up and told myself I'm gonna chase my dreams
Part of its for me, the other part is strictly for the team
Voices in my head distinctly saying words to me
One day our worlds will meet
Until then it's me myself and the music
Beanie

Written by:
Darin Ramharakh, Mathew Deokinandan, Michael Arjun

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