Subjekt Zero - Stay healthy, ever lovely, and be yourself

Hey I know it's been a minute
But I want to know how you've been
And um yeah
Just call me back okay

I just lost you and kills me
Tell me why do I guilty
Why is the feeling so recognizable as it is hurting

Never meant to be reliant
On you, that is just defying
Everything I stood for I am
Laying in my bedroom crying

Wishing you would be the triumph
In this battle, our alliance
Could take on the ancient Mayans
It doesn't take neuroscience
To see that in our compliance
I could stand tall like a giant
Tower over my demises
Maybe I'm just rationalizing

But that's not what I am implying
I miss you so much, no lying
I'd take on a thousand lions
Just one man, viciously fighting
Cut me, bite me, I'll keep trying
For this beautiful diviness
I won't give up not this time and
I'll keep going till we're smiling

At each other, that's my comfort
Bread n butter
Ain't no other
I don't think I can recover
If I have to rediscover
This feeling I have with others
They just wouldn't make me flutter
If it were anyone else but you I don't want her

There's no way to ease this pain, carving paths into my brain
Outlines of you that you paved
That are empty in their place
Happiness is now a maze
That I conquer to this day
Distractions are the only way
Music alcohol and games

Block you out for just a minute
Just to realize I am grinning
Look to my left, you are missing
That smirk will slowly diminish
Back to thinking of the snippets
That I've christened as intrinsic
Pushing limits tend to sicken
Me as I remember Christmas

With your family, we were happy
Little did I know we were standing
On foundations that were sandy
In three months then we disbanding
Screaming sobbing, moments flashing
Denial as I'm recapping
Tears are rolling, lips are flapping
I don't want to leave now, what's happening

You were crying, I'm in shock
This isn't really what I thought
That trying would bring something up
I figured that I was enough
From what you said I wasn't wrong
You didn't want to be the one
To say it and I know it sucked
But you were right, you need this hun

You said that this isn't over
That I won't get the cold shoulder
Until then I'll be a soldier
Power through this like a motor
Keep my feelings all on hold for
Her to tell me, I can hold her
Promise to hold my composure
When I say what I should've told her

I would stare right at my background
That's my baby I would shout out
No one could take this feeling from me except you, now a countdown
Has entered my brain and no ounce
Of muscle that I can pronounce
Lifts me higher like your profound
Aura so now I will surround

Myself with your gifts and moments
That we've shared and no condolence
Makes it better, I'm just hoping
That you smile when you're going
Through your photos then you notice
Pictures of us then you hold them
Close to your chest in the morning
Reminiscent of enjoyment

Just remember I'm not gone
I'm right here waiting with my palm
For you to grab and snuggle up
On the couch when we get lost
In youtube, boy yeah what a thought
Till then know I will be on call
I'll grasp that straw and I'll hold it taught
Until you say come back my love

I miss you

Written by:
William Palmer

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