K-Rym Muzishunn - Life is Hopeless

Why is life better when I go to sleep
Why does it feel like cancer in my head
Yo, I wake up and it feels like i'm dead
I feel like I'm drowning in Challenger Deep
Life is hopeless
I can't find happiness anymore
When I think I'm at my peak, I fall back down to the floor
I look at myself and I see failure and weakness
Look at the pain in my face, man
I'm so worthless
I can't go through the day without breaking down
I try to crack a smile, but my mood just beats me down
I be breathing heavily and I have these palpitations
I can barely think straight and I lose my concentration
I'm losing a battle against myself
I go to bed wishing for a permanent asleep
But before I go to sleep, I just start to weep
Cause there's no need to go to heaven, man
I'm already in hell
Life is hopeless
What did I ever do to deserve this
Smile on my face while I'm mentally suffering
People try to be comforting, but no chance of recovering
If you wanna talk, then you can always come and talk to me
Who's actually gonna listen
It's not gonna make a difference
A whole lifetime of pain has been accumulating
Building up, building up
It's building up that tension
Too many inconveniences in life, it's so overwhelming
It's hard to talk about it cause people say I'm just looking for attention
I started turning to alcohol to numb the pain
Don't care if ethanol's bad for me
It'll mellow my brain
I'm considering cutting myself
Yeah you can call me crazy
It's gotten to the point where I don't think about my safety
Life is hopeless and I know that nobody cares
I'm so broken that there's no way I can be repaired
I have these dark thoughts and, no lie, I'm very scared
Got so many visions of my death, but I think I'm prepared
I can't stand feeling all this pain within me
I can't stand it
What did I ever do to deserve this
Come on
I can't do this
I don't wanna live like this
I have to lie and say that I'm fine
I wanna get better, man. I'm tryin'
But there's no reason in living
I wanna put and end to my suffering
Everyday I just brake down and cry
Come on! Just kill me, I JUST WANNA DIE
THIS IS IT
LET'S MAKE IT A REALITY RIGHT NOW
Y'ALL GOT TEN SECONDS
Give me one reason why I shouldn't end it all right now
One reason why I shouldn't dig my throat out
One reason why I shouldn't cut my vocal chords so I can't scream anymore
My presence is not even important anyways
There will be no difference if I live or die
Y'all are running out of time
Give me one reason
GIVE ME ONE REASON
GIVE ME ONE REASON
AAAH
Just when I was about to end it all
My cry for help was heard
I can't believe I was about to do this to myself
I can't believe my own mind was gonna get the best of me
I was so close to taking the easy way out
But the people around me came to my help before it was too late
They knew something wasn't right with me
They went out their way to help me
They showed me that people do care
That there's way more to live for
And they showed me that i'm not alone in this
However, I'm still hurting inside
I still feel emptiness within me
I still wanna isolate myself most of the time
I don't know why my mind is still in that dark place
But with all the help i'm getting, I just hope I get better soon

Written by:
Khareem Obas-Wiseman

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