K-Rym Muzishunn - Life is Hopeless (Altered Ending)

Why is life better when I go to sleep
Why does it feel like cancer in my head
Yo, I wake up and it feels like i'm dead
I feel like I'm drowning in Challenger Deep
Life is hopeless
I can't find happiness anymore
When I think I'm at my peak, I fall back down to the floor
I look at myself and I see failure and weakness
Look at the pain in my face, man
I'm so worthless
I can't go through the day without breaking down
I try to crack a smile, but my mood just beats me down
I be breathing heavily and I have these palpitations
I can barely think straight and I lose my concentration
I'm losing a battle against myself
I go to bed wishing for a permanent asleep
But before I go to sleep, I just start to weep
Cause there's no need to go to heaven, man
I'm already in hell
Life is hopeless
What did I ever do to deserve this
Smile on my face while I'm mentally suffering
People try to be comforting, but no chance of recovering
If you wanna talk, then you can always come and talk to me
Who's actually gonna listen
It's not gonna make a difference
A whole lifetime of pain has been accumulating
Building up, building up
It's building up that tension
Too many inconveniences in life, it's so overwhelming
It's hard to talk about it cause people say I'm just looking for attention
I started turning to alcohol to numb the pain
Don't care if ethanol's bad for me
It'll mellow my brain
I'm considering cutting myself
Yeah you can call me crazy
It's gotten to the point where I don't think about my safety
Life is hopeless and I know that nobody cares
I'm so broken that there's no way I can be repaired
I have these dark thoughts and, no lie, I'm very scared
Got so many visions of my death, but I think I'm prepared
I can't stand feeling all this pain within me
I can't stand it
What did I ever do to deserve this
Come on
I can't do this
I don't wanna live like this
I have to lie and say that I'm fine
I wanna get better, man. I'm tryin'
But there's no reason in living
I wanna put and end to my suffering
Everyday I just brake down and cry
Come on! Just kill me, I JUST WANNA DIE
THIS IS IT
LET'S MAKE IT A REALITY RIGHT NOW
Y'ALL GOT TEN SECONDS
Give me one reason why I shouldn't end it all right now
One reason why I shouldn't dig my throat out
One reason why I shouldn't cut my vocal chords so I can't scream anymore
My presence is not even important anyways
There will be no difference if I live or die
Y'all are running out of time
Give me one reason
GIVE ME ONE REASON
GIVE ME ONE REASON
AAAH
I had no choice
I had to do it
There was no way in hell I was going to suffer yet another day
No way I was gonna spend another day of feeling more and more pain within me
I was down
I needed help
I publicly cried for help
But where were you
Where were you when I needed you the most
I fought such a long long battle against myself
Life was beating me down and still beat me when I was on the ground helpless
But then finally gave up
There was simply no point in my life
I'm just a pointless waste of space with no future
There was just no place for me in this world
You guys go
Go ahead and live your lives
It's not like you'll remember me anyways
I'll either be rotting six feet underground or in ashes
Life is hopeless

Written by:
Khareem Obas-Wiseman

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