Nick Austin - Better

I'm convinced I'm smart enough to think my way out of all of my problems
But I'll admit I'm way too far away to really know how I would solve 'em
I have done a lot of wrongs and I want to know how to absolve them
I just need to find a way to be okay with how I have evolved them
I keep reminiscing 'bout the time we spent together
Give me peace of mind
I feel guilty cause I'm always thinking of you but, who the fuck am I
I'm
Just the type to get infatuated to the same degree I'm insecure, hi
I'm someone who needs to get inebriated just to deal with life
Can't get out my head, all of my regrets sleep with me in bed, I'm broken
I just play pretend, I'm fucking obsessed, I cannot reset, I'm frozen
What is really left when you lose yourself
Are you really fucking hopeless
Or do you have to shed, whatever's left, to become you in wholeness
I just sit here waiting on the moment I convince myself I'm unapologetic
I just sit here hoping my emotions get in check and don't turn in to epidemics
I just want to be normal
I just want to get rid of the pressure
I just want breathe
I just want to be okay
I just want to be better
I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better
I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better
I've been living in the past
I keep going back
Just to check on my mistakes
All I ever learned from 'em was that I have never been okay with change
I think I've developed more than a disorder I think I've developed like a curse
Cause when I really dig deep and try and find me, it just makes it worse
People tell me that I have to let them in
But the more I try the more I wouldn't
Always over analyzing so as far as socializing, honestly, I really fucking shouldn't
I just see the world a little differently
But I'm the one telling myself I couldn't
If what I am is what I think then what I will become is only how I tweak my looking
I see bright stars
I see dark tunnels
I see good things underneath the rubble
And I fight hard
To be right, God
If I'm fucking up just tell me I'm in trouble
I just sit at bars
White knuckles
And this tight jaw
Trying not to buckle under all the shit I think about
I can't see straight until I'm only seeing double
Set myself up every day to fail because I go into this way too damn protected
Help me learn my lessons
I can't count my blessings
Without these projections
You call it depression, I call that subjective
Keep 'em fucking coming 'till I finally get this figured out
I will be here until the day my thoughts create a way to heal a part of me I haven't found
I just sit here waiting on the moment I convince myself I'm unapologetic
I just sit here hoping my emotions get in check and don't turn in to epidemics
I just want to be normal
I just want to get rid of the pressure
I just want breathe
I just want to be okay
I just want to be better
I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better
I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better

Written by:
Nicholas Misiano

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