Nick Austin - Miss You Now

Is anybody out there
Can you hear me
Am I running out of time
Can everybody up there hear me clearly
Am I walking with myself in my mind
Walking a road
Being alone
When they tell you they're right by your side
I can't see you but I can feel you
Breathing through lines
Hello
Have I gotten through somehow
Hello
Did I leave when you had needed me the most
Hello
Have I managed to break through somehow
Hello
I miss you now
I think I might finally be in tune with how it is
No one wants to watch their family leave them in the shit
You were there from day one and I barely knew our mix
I feel like a stranger to you, I feel like I've missed
I can think of so many times that we could have seen each other
So many moments I could have come to both of you for your help
I can think of so many ways that we could have prevented this
But I know you are looking down on me and wishing that I'm well
My problem is that I'm always thinking of you two
What the fuck had happened
Why was life that hard for both of you
I know we had had some problems with some distance
But I knew you two would always be there if I needed you to help me through
Now you're gone and I don't get it, why'd you take that way out?
You left us here to pass the blame and wonder what it's all about
Never saw our father cry until we put you in the ground
Both of you were too young, and I'm sorry you were never found
I know you can hear me
I've seen the sings around this house
I know you are watching me write all this out, you are around
I keep on trying hard to come up with the proper way to tell
You both I miss you more than I knew I could ever dream about
I don't know what happened
They say it's hereditary
But if suicide is how we find ourselves, I'm never ready
Look at what you did to mom
What you did to dad
I have never been this type of sad
Aint no looking back
Permanent solutions and we're left to hold on through the drag
Further the pollution of my mind with what's inside this bag
Caught between the way I know I am inside my head
And what would happen if I wasn't taking all my meds
I'll do my best to bring you both around through what I write
And see where we end up from there
I just want both of you to talk to me
I'm trying not to cry about it, not to hate my life
Pressures building up inside my mind and this is haunting me
I'm weak and need your help
Just explain the what and why
Please help mom and dad to be okay
I know it takes some time but if you both could tell them
That you love them and you're sorry
I would be forever grateful
Signed, your brother
Read between the lines
Is anybody out there
Can you hear me
Am I running out of time
Can everybody up there hear me clearly
Am I walking with myself in my mind
Walking a road
Being alone
When they tell you they're right by your side
I can't see you but I can feel you
Breathing through lines
Hello
Have I gotten through somehow
Hello
Did I leave when you had needed me the most
Hello
Have I managed to break through somehow
Hello
I miss you now

Written by:
Nicholas Misiano

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