A N T I T H E S I S, AWON and Seb Zillner - III. (awon)
I was in shockwhen my brother got rocked
or when my cousins got locked
Or when I learned that my sons hearing stopped
So I grieved and in God I believe
Spent sometime on my knees
Praying for peace in my soul
Never at ease
My denial what they did to my child
Should of took it to trial
Turning the other cheek
That was my style
I was meek
Humble thoughts slow to speak
Don't get it twisted I was violent in the streets
If it's the reason that I eat
No delights in the night
anger suffocates life
Shining bright on the mic
They think I'm doing alright
I'm depressed I still can't accept
Tiff's mothers death
Or the fact that my daughter came after she left
This is Pain
I know Mama J got Jazz back
I know she feel her granny's presence every time we go back
To the news
Where if you snooze you lose
I lost cuz cause he was high off Shrooms he got his last rite read before he took that snooze
I tell to prove
A higher power exists
It's not what I assume
I lost love to heroine fentanyl cancer violence rarely natural causes
No moments of silence
Auntie didn't have to die at all
She was neglected
Today I move carefully
With energy protected
I finally accepted that life is really hectic
The ones you love the most
Will sell you out to cop a necklace
Bargaining with demons
They will eat you up for breakfast
Spawning from the semens of the young ones living reckless
That's why the current generation
Seem to have a death wish
Obsessing over stolen legacies
And early exits
I teach you how to Dougie
Like the vein of Douglas Fredrick
I'm processing this pain
My tolerance is off the metrics
I hope you understand these 7 stages of grief
The highest understanding comes after
You are deceased
Written by:
ANTWAN PETER WIGGINS, GEORGII SPEAKMAN
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