Nix Mclean - MY ORDEAL

(Yeah, yeah)

If I'm liking it I'm keeping it
I'm dying with my lyrics
This is my reality I believe in it
I'm feeling it not dreaming it
I'm living it like literally my
Rhythm is not withering keep
Hitting me I'm not living inside
Any limits I'm doing this with
Nothing but me and my will
I'm beginning to feel like
I'm the king of the hill
I'm unwilling to sleep
Cause they didn't believe
Until I did it indeed
I'm thinking this is nearly surreal
Like I didn't even exist for real
This is just my ordeal, my ordeal

And I'm not falling in I'm all inning
Always winning cause
I'm focusing on the positives
Will not be living anonymously
Obviously I'm in too deep
Not to see me win
When I'm When I'm
Risking everything
I think this is my awakening
Future me better be listening
Stop the reminiscing
Fuck the memories
Permanent serenity
Will never be real
I'll get myself killed escaping this hell
But I'm prolly better off dead
Than not be doing this until the end of me
I don't believe in defeat it's entirely make believe
That's what they hate to hear
Mister big brain is here

If I'm liking it I'm keeping it
I'm dying with my lyrics
This is my reality I believe in it
I'm feeling it not dreaming it
I'm living it like literally my
Rhythm is not withering keep
Hitting me I'm not living inside
Any limits I'm doing this with
Nothing but me and my will
I'm beginning to feel like
I'm the king of the hill
I'm unwilling to sleep
Cause they didn't believe
Until I did it indeed
I'm thinking this is nearly surreal
Like I didn't even exist for real
This is just my ordeal, my ordeal

The only ones I must trust is
Me myself and I
Plus this hip hop by my side
I rely on the rhyme like
The reaper does with his scythe
My mind's not right
And that'll be the only reason I rise
I roll the dice with my life
It's Russian roulette my guy
And I wonder why am I alive
Like just have my sacrifice
Hope it will suffice
Watch me die inside watch me die inside
I speak my mind
Until I meet my demise
I blow things up on the mic
Just like dynamite
The nine to five is not my kind
I promise we're not alike
I write to survive I write to survive

Walk a day in my shoes
And you'll be traumatized
I'm launching homing missiles
Everyone dies but I'll be fine
Cause like dawn of the dead
I wasn't really alive
But they'll take me dead or alive
So there's no escape only lies
For me to hide behind
I'm dying inside
There's no recovering my peace of mind
It's gone
So I'll aim to be the best
Cause the never ending stress is
Nothing compared to the weight on my chest
Gimme that chain on my neck
I'm a trainwreck
I'm not making amends
I need my revenge
I'm wearing my vest and my helm
I'm ready and set to step into hell

If I'm liking it I'm keeping it
I'm dying with my lyrics
This is my reality I believe in it
I'm feeling it not dreaming it
I'm living it like literally my
Rhythm is not withering keep
Hitting me I'm not living inside
Any limits I'm doing this with
Nothing but me and my will
I'm beginning to feel like
I'm the king of the hill
I'm unwilling to sleep
Cause they didn't believe
Until I did it indeed
I'm thinking this is nearly surreal
Like I didn't even exist for real
This is just my ordeal, my ordeal

Written by:
Nix Mclean

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