The Real Fast Lane - Worthless

Yo
Just sittin' here
In my head and shit
Fucked up
High... again
Knowing it's pointless
Anxiety takin' over
Tryin' to
Find the determination
To keep on pushin'

You know what's crazy is I have no drive
I write these songs but I waste my time
It's not that hard to make some shit rhyme
But I'll be dead before I'll do it live
Hate that shit but it's not my fault
Anxiety get's the best of me
Maybe if I would put down the pot
But then you'll see me hitting trees
I don't know where to go from here
I write and then I record a verse
If only my future path was clear
And I knew what was coming till I found the hearse
I just make things worse when I think about it
Looked for that gold but I never found it
It's like I was looking all around it
But a damn barb wire fence surrounds it
But that's not true, the problem's me
I just don't have the drive to be
Anything more than what you see
A stoner loser who failed all three
Of his precious kids and his gorgeous wife
Contemplated taking my life
Not trying to get to personal
I just want ya'll to see my strife
I wanna push, I wanna be the best
But I guess I'm not as hungry as the rest
This is something that I need off my chest
Everything I do I fucking second guess
I overthink, it's a problem for me
But it's just who I am, yeah, it's just Colby
I'll back away and I'll do it coldly
Most people think my raps are corny
Anyway

Look, I know my songs are not perfect
A lot of people think that
Think that
Think that
Think they're not worth it
But I'm just trying to let you
Let you
Let you
Under the surface
I just wanna prove that
Prove that
Prove that
Prove that I am not worthless

How am I supposed to do that, though
When I hate myself
When I hate this flow
When I hate this beat
When I hate this slow
Ass shit
And I wish
That I didn't have to go
Through all this shit
That I'm going through
Like, what the fuck am I supposed to do
The nicest guy that you'll ever meet
And I just keep on getting screwed
Well, so much for karma
It don't help me
Take a step forward
Got knocked back three
Every day I get up gotta dodge that beast
Or enemies taking shots at me
Verbally
I'm a killa
Rip you apart like a damn gorilla
Eat your heart, my plan for dinner
But I will never be a winner
Prolly cuz I'm scared of what
Making money? Having fun
Getting the chance to be number one
Fuck this shit, man, I'm fucking done
I always quit before I even start
It's so damn easy but it's so damn hard
For real? I'm the best when it comes to bars
But I can't seem to get the words off my heart
If I could just figure out a way
To let ya'll know what I mean to say
I really feel my life would change
I keep looking forward like, man, one day
But that day has yet to come
I just sit around like a fucking bum
Thirty-six goddamn years old
Still doing nothing, man, I'm fucking dumb

Look, I know my songs are not perfect
A lot of people think that
Think that
Think that
Think they're not worth it
But I'm just trying to let you
Let you
Let you
Under the surface
I just wanna prove that
Prove that
Prove that
Prove that I am not worthless

I really am trying to let ya'll in
But I'm finding that it's hard to give
Ya'll the keys
And I don't believe
That you're here for me
Wanna see me win
Most of you are just out for you
That's what I believe; damn the truth
You wanna see
My victory
Then, I'ma need to see some proof
I don't wanna anger anybody in my family
But I'm really feeling like nobody understands me
I got a couple people in my clan that compare me
To others, like my brother, but they do the shit unfairly
Cuz I'm not better, shit, I'm prolly worse
I tend to be selfish and I'm kind of a jerk
Really nice guy with a really bad mindset
Like ya'll stand still while I'm putting in work
But the opposite is true for me
Truthfully
You're gonna see
That anybody can be what they wanna be
Except for me
Cuz I'm a piece
Of shit
And I wish
That this
Wasn't it
Wanna get
Really lit
Till I can't
Feel shit
Then I spit
Different
When I'm in
This bitch
I don't
Wanna quit
Wanna keep
Goin'
But then the demons start talkin'
You can't do this shit your too soft and
Why the fuck you even gon' bother
You should heed the words of your father
When he said that rap shit was fake
When he said that you're a mistake
When you know that man ain't never lied
Why the fuck you even gon' waste
Your time

Look, I know my songs are not perfect
A lot of people think that
Think that
Think that
Think they're not worth it
But I'm just trying to let you
Let you
Let you
Under the surface
I just wanna prove that
Prove that
Prove that
Prove that I am not worthless

Written by:
Colby Bailey

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