LOVEMEFRVR - Flawed

While you're cuddled up under them blankets
All in love and complacent
I'm solely focused on this life that I'm chasing
Cause see It ain't easy being me
It never was and won't be
But that's okay
My greatest virtue is patience
All the pain I embrace it
I never thought that I would get to this moment
I know I'm flawed see problem is though I own it
You're the one who won't admit that we was more than just homies
You're the one who
matter of fact
I ain't even gon go there
That's a whole nother story
Swear I ain't got time for it
I got too much on my plate
With way more on my shoulders
My mother always told me boy you need to slow it down
I never listened to her then and look at me now
Shit look at us now
It's okay though I ain't tripping off ya
I mean I am but fuck it
This ain't what it is regardless
Maybe I'm out of line
Tell me if I'm telling lies
You say I was living reckless
Crazy how that's your perspective
I endured a lot through the years
Filled a lot of slots
Been experiencing all my fears
It ain't fair in the field
I'm well aware of that now more than ever
I spent way too long playing games with the devil
I had to get it together
You fall in love
Then you'll be falling forever
Said you was riding then you changed like the weather
I doubt I'll ever find better
But it's whatever
I'm too leveled for this
I'm quick to act like you ain't ever exist
Hold up
I blame the women in my life for all my trust issues
I'm a broken man and they all played a hand in it
I always told my mother that I'd never turn out like my father
Lord knows I tried my hardest but I can't manage
I can't stand it
I'm always in some shit I can't stand in
Almost had a kid at seventeen
Shit left my soul damaged
Tell me what was I to do in a position like that
When she ain't give my ass no choice in the matter
Mm damn
Matter of fact
Let me retract those last lines
Cause the truth is I could've stopped it at any time
The truth is I could've strapped a rubber every time
But I'm slave to the pussy
I'm only human bottom line
And even till this day I still ran in the same cycles
Fucking bitches left and right
I guess I never learned
See I'd wear my heart on my sleeve
But my whole fit is distressed
I'm hanging on by a thread
It's time I let it burn
No usher but these are my confessions
I digress with every step that I take
I'm bad with directions
Extremely hard to love but I'm well worth the pressure
I can't give away these keys if you ain't work for the treasure
Look
I say I ain't materialistic but I splurge a lot
That's the only kind of love I know
Shout out to pops
I think it's safe to say I'm on a self destructive path
But fuck it
Just know I'm a product of my fucking past
I'm well aware of all the monsters I've created
I can't shake it
Every time there's a reflection all I ever see is hatred
I've been following your steps for so fucking long
I lost hope a while back I'd ever walk my own
Dawg you had me thinking shit was cool
Always juggling two
Like that's the way to live
But we ain't got the same goals
Maybe look alike but we don't play the same roles
Nonetheless the apple
You know how the saying goes
Fuck all that talking
I ain't for the talking
Had to get it popping on my own
Cause you ain't give me options
Taught myself everything that I know
Cause you wasn't there to walk me
Through the darkness
I blame you for all the shit that haunts me
See now that's the fucking problem
You don't see my problems
You're clearly perfectly okay with never being round me
But yet I still manage to love you and that shits astounding
I guess deep down it's cause I know that you ain't have a father
Maybe
Damn
He was round but never cared enough to teach ya
Shit is deeper than I dare to go
Even then though daddy dearest let me let you know
You could've stopped a lot of pain if you just would've showed
You could've kept me fucking sane if we just would've spoke
But again I know that none of this is your fault
You're only passing on the same habits you was brought
Still ain't shit changing about the way I feel about you
If I was to see you right now
I'd get you knocked off
Cause we're all flawed

Written by:
Carlos Vazquez

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