deatyG - I Don't Want More

I don't like thinking
It deludes my thoughts
Like Don Quijote reading
I'm going nuts
With every dream
And with every nightmare
My head fills with steam
And the lies come faster
I keep telling myself things that are not real
But I'm scared to ask and to share how I feel
I don't want to lose you 'cause I'm insecure
I'm a loser that loves too much and of that I'm sure
Maybe distractions will blind all my needs
Porn, women, games, social media, and pills
Buy useless shit that I will never use
Thing after thing that keeps hiding my truth
This verse is too long
I hate reflection
I just want unconditional affection
The more I wait the more my heart gets fickle
I think way too much therefore I am way to little, yeah
I don't want more
More of the dread
More of what life has in store
More of the mold in the bread
I'd rather stay hungry instead
Of this I cannot stand more
Stay underground like a mole
Wait there 'till I turn to mold
I really don't want to grow old
My story shall never be told
Stopping my life now
Just seems so easy
But people always prevent me from leaving
This shit is not really fair
Hostility in the air
You're lying you don't really care
I've got no more feelings to share
From your shit I'd like to be spared
I don't want more
More of the dread
More of what life has in store
More of the mold in the bread
I'd rather stay hungry instead
Of this I cannot stand more
Stay underground like a mole
Wait there 'till I turn to mold
I really don't want to grow old
My story shall never be told
I cannot hold in
The feelings I'm feeling
I'm like a zit
That'll blow and start bleeding
My ego is shattered
But that shit don't matter
If I tie my neck in a noose
And step of that fucking step ladder
All of the pain will be gone
This life ain't gonna restart
I can't sit down
And play a game
Or write a song
Or say I'm
I'm trapped in a cell
Happiness out of reach
I cannot swim
Yet I go to the beach
My heart is at war
With the things I love
And the people I love
And the places I'm at
I'd love to love love but I can't 'cause it breaks me
That shit holds me back so I can't be amazing
I think that school
Is very important
But it holds me back
And it takes my time
I'd like to go but
It's draining my mind
I'd wish to go but
My time is not mine
You know what?
I feel kind of tired
Imma close my eyes
And put out the fire
I'm going to hell
Give into desires
Keep on casting your spells
'Cause it's them that I'll buy into
I don't want more
More of the dread
More of what life has in store
More of the mold in the bread
I'd rather stay hungry instead
Of this I cannot stand more
Stay underground like a mole
Wait there 'till I turn to mold
I really don't want to grow old
My story shall never be told
Stopping my life now
Just seems so easy
But people always prevent me from leaving
This shit is not really fair
Hostility in the air
You're lying you don't really care
I've got no more feelings to share
From your shit I'd like to be spared
I don't want more
More of the dread
More of what life has in store
More of the mold in the bread
I'd rather stay hungry instead
Of this I cannot stand more
Stay underground like a mole
Wait there 'till I turn to mold
I really don't want to grow old
My story shall never be told
I cannot hold in
The feelings I'm feeling
I'm like a zit
That'll blow and start bleeding
My ego is shattered
But that shit don't matter
If I tie my neck in a noose
And step of that fucking step ladder
All of the pain will be gone
This life ain't gonna restart

Written by:
Gustavo Zavala

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