Budman. - A Little Background

Let me give a little background
I used to be the class clown
I used to be talented
I used to be everything that everybody wasn’t, I would stand out
And everyone would say to me
“Ez, you’ll be famous, one day we’ll see”
But I was ten back then, now it’s eight years later
All I hear is, “you’ll turn out okay, you’ll see”
And I hate this speech
I hate the fact that I’ve given up these eight years I won’t get back
“But you wrote a rap”
Yeah - one rap out of eighty-seven thousand
That were thrown and scrapped
I got nothing done
Life is about what you give to it
I found a drug, gave all my gifts to it
Now I feel like I have nothing to contribute to my life ‘cept shit music
I just blew it
Life is about what you give to it
I found a drug, gave all my gifts to it
Now I feel like I have nothing to contribute to my life ‘cept shit music
My dad and I, we don’t get along much
But we sat and had a calm lunch
Generally speaking, there’s always point that he wants to get off
Of his mind when he calls up
So we start eating
He doesn’t start speaking
’Til halfway through when he stops to
Tell me how much it meant to him watching me perform in front of a crowd
I was on drums
I was on stage
I was in a band
He told me how big he thought of his little man
I’ve never seen my dad cry but a small tear ran
From his left eye down to his left hand
And it made sense
Because eight months prior to the show it was not pleasant
I would come home stoned
Livin’ in my own zone
You could see it in my eyes I was not present
And he couldn’t reach out to me
It must’ve been so motherfucking frustrating
Having one thing, one person in your life who you want to succeed so bad
But you watch him give up daily
And your son’s not the same person
And it’s clear that his brain has worsened
An adult who has no ambition
Was a kid who was once determined
Life is about what you give to it
But what can you give when you’re lifeless
Life is about what you give to it
I found a drug, gave all my gifts to it
Now I feel like I have nothing to contribute to my life ‘cept shit music
I just blew it
Life is about what you give to it
I found a drug, gave all my gifts to it
Now I feel like I have nothing to contribute to my life ‘cept shit music

Written by:
Ezra Budman

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