Lil JJ Reynolds - Backwards Mind

A backwards mind
Mixed with lost thoughts and a lost past
Makes you go crazy
That's a backwards mind
Life
Mind twisted but I'm just too stubborn to fix it
Just another witness to see my life get twisted
I'm sick of this world cause I'm always living in sickness
Feeling so distant like I'm non-existent
All my life 'I was an square that didn't fit anywhere
Cause no one cares, (Nah), when my tears fall
I got the mind of an alien that doesn't exist
I couldn't fit cause I was different
From the crowd that would judge me 'everywhere I went
I was broken up inside, so I had to re-invent
But the outside world was tearing me apart
By ending my career, so I couldn't restart
I needed some help, I was an wounded shark
That needed help finding light cause I was in the dark all my life
And my mind wasn't right
Leading me to the wrong directions, It was nothing in sight
So what's the point of this life?, why do I put up a fight?
Why do I always have problems sleeping at night?
Why do I act like I'm alright when deep inside I'm going crazy?
Feeling suicidal man, can anybody save me? and my backwards mind?
Promised dreams got lost when I lost myself
Been confidential and I've always kept my thoughts to myself
When I failed, It was nobody's fault but myself
But I just wouldn't talk when I needed some help
Cause I felt like I could handle everything by myself
But I couldn't, so I tried to make a plan for myself
But It backfired, then I flew right on the shelf
I felt extraordinary pain, It was bad for my health
Cause I kept it inside, It was destroying my mind
Keeping me from writing thoughts, I was lost and blind
I felt bad for myself, then I started not to care
Like the only thing for me to do was disappear
I was an broke man, surrounded by rich pioneers
That looks down on people like me with a stare
This world won't accept a person with an disability
They look at us and say that we don't have the ability
To do anything cause we don't get respectability
I'm physically insane, bipolar is killing me
I'm literally a mess, dealing with the stress
Moving side to side like an game of chess
I feel the pain in my chest, will it be my last breath?
Somebody come save me cause I just want rest in peace without an backwards mind

Written by:
Jordan Reynolds

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