Julia Ho - Bad Days

Sometimes
I get a little lonely
I cry myself to sleep at night
And wish that I could just be again
Just be myself
What am I afraid of now
The age of fairytales and Mary Jane's
Playing and singing and laughing and painting
You tell my sweetheart "just hold onto my hand"
I know it's frightening, but one day you'll understand
Now every day I try to let myself know
That it's a normal thing to cry even when you're grown
And every day I tell myself it's okay to be scared
You'll always have my love and care
It's not on you that you feel this ache
I'll never judge you by your bad days
I'm twenty one
I should have figured it all out by now
My friends are moving on in life
While I'm still finding the meaning of mine
I still hold on to my baby blanket
I always fall just shy of perfect
I hurt myself to help myself
It's the one thing that I can do well
My mum tells me I should practice what I preach
Cuz I can be kind to everyone but me
So every day I try to let myself know
That it's perfectly fine to cry even when you're grown
And every day I tell myself it's okay to be nervous
You may fall, but you will flourish
It's okay to feel this ache
I'll never judge you by your bad days
How'd I get to this place?
Oh my my
I wear long sleeves all year long
So I can cover up the evidence of all that's going on
If I could add a line or two
So I could feel at ease
I know it'll make a mark on me
Like a wine stain left to dry
Like the flip of a switch
I fall from cheerfulness
To emptiness
I fill by bleeding from my wrists
You are someone I admire
Like a beautiful choir
You never gave up
Instead you gave me all your love
I'll take one step, but the staircase can wait
I think I'll start by letting myself have bad days
Now every day I try to let myself know
Bad days are part of living, but there will be good ones too
And every day I tell myself just try my best
When I run past Angus and King Ed.
And see the challenges I'll face
I'll never judge you by your bad days
And every day I try to let myself know
We all have our fears and faults, but a mighty soul
And every time I cry I make sure to let myself know
That it's safe to share what's going on below
You're not weak—you're strong, and you're kind, and you're thoughtful, and brave
I'll never judge you by your bad days

Written by:
Julia Ho

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