Nevv - Beautiful Murder (feat. April Shantae)

I used to think it's selfish Taylor offed her life
I used to think it's stupid how it ever crossed her mind
But now a days I realized, I was so blinded by my rage and my internal prejudices
That I never saw the problems in her life she couldn't turn and come to grips with
If I was in her shoes I don't know how I would've handled every burden and decision
I just know that she's the type of person with a life that is worth living damn

I used to think it's selfish how Taylor offed her life
I used to think it's stupid how it ever crossed her mind
But who am I to judge her
And who are you to judge her
I know you probably think in what she did was so destructive
That she shoulda stuck it out and tried to shake it, if she could she would've done it
But now I'm looking back all these years
All I did was call you selfish in that casket she was sealed in
Never swapped perspective, or imagine all the shit she had to deal with
Instead
I lied to you saying that I put myself inside her shoes but I can't put my heel in
I'm so heart broken on the fact she thought that suicide was actually gonna heal shit
And that's the problem with this
All these kids are fucking dying with a common interest
They don't think to give it time, time is nonexistent
They just want the pain to stop if it means to give their live that's the cost to get it
But they don't see what happens after this
They're stuck inside a mental state that's so debilitating that they're trapped with
So they just find the fast route to bail out fuck the consequences

I really think it's selfish how you chose offed your life
I really think it's stupid how it ever crossed your mind
But see my paps he always told me
Seek to understand if you wanna be understood
So I'm trying to switch our shoes let your laces cover my foot
So I see the pain that you bared and feel thoughts you were scared to think
Cause I know you thought that your branch was alone on your family tree
I know you that lost your mom and your father you barely see
But there's things that you never saw
When I stood at your candle lighting
You should've seen the whole toll that you took upon Anthony!
That's the hardest that I've ever seen a man cry
And that's the minute that I stared fucking asking why
God why'd you take her
Why'd you have to start a trend
Cause right after Taylor left
Austin made his last choice to tie a noose around his neck
Suicide became contagious
It was death after death
Even Kobe made the choice to put that gun against his head
So I don't know if it was selfish how you chose to off your life
And I don't know if it was selfish that it ever crossed your mind
I just know that to stop your pain there's better ways you coulda cured it
But I'm glad the hurting stop and that's what makes this situation such a beautiful murder

Written by:
Ian Neville

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