Genaddy - Book of Burdens

I hate to make you wait, pain stemming from mistakes
I tried to fix and seal the cracks but it seems every time they break
Don't hold your breath the next time I tell you that I will change
Blindfold on my face, I'm walking in a straight line down the range
The promises I make, lead to problems I create
Is it fate, or life's attempt to tell me that our love had drained
But I won't buy that for a cent, in my head it didn't make sense
Because I know the love we hold poured out my heart and made a stain
But will you stay? Or will you be my dying grace
I'll work with you through your issues if you help me try to shake
All the ones I hold subconsciously and stuck inside my brain
Framed dishonesty but constantly I drag myself to sins
You can take the book right off the shelf and read what I had did
Don't get nervous when the curtains open up chapter six
That's when abandonment dug in my brain and I let them dig
They built a house, and won't come out, I hear them laugh as they live
And there's a rumor that the tumor's from the stress that they give
My sins were different, thoughts had shifted from a mild mannered kid
To one with sinister convictions, my confessions were shortlisted
Baby please stay here to listen, I know both our hearts been twisted
Ripped of the trust they've giving
And I won't take it lightly when you think about not living
I have seen the cause of suicide
That bloodstained page on chapter nine is pretty brief but well described
The one thing that I couldn't find in my mind is how to describe
That look he had inside his eye
But I can tell you that the floor felt colder on the day he died
I'm hoping that this helps you to visualize and see why
My humor's mixed and compromised
I ask again through my disguise
Will you stay? Will you help me try
To turn my chronic lying into your smile
And I have seen you cry
And I have seen you laugh
And I'd prefer it if the former would stay in the past
I know I'm the reason why your eyes are red under the mask
I will be the one to take our love and stretch it make it last
But for me to say forever means forgive my past
For me to say forever means forgive my past
And I wanna say forever
I'll hang onto every letter
Every word that you can gather
When you look at me and tell me there's no place that you would rather be
And I wear my heart on my sleeve
But I would rip it off
If it meant you wouldn't bleed
And I see that you're held captive
And I'm in the cell beneath
Now how do we escape the prosecution from the free
The ones that called us freaks
In their parent's eyes
The perfect child title they don't need
In that throne and on that seat
Is where I seek to be
But it always seemed to be a misdemeanor out my reach
But now we're grown the more I see
That our futures you and me
Where we go and what we hold
Our home will be our masterpiece
Our oasis for escaping
Where we can both be at peace
But for now
I guess that is just a dream
I get a glimpse of happiness
But when it passes I scream
I come to grips with my depression
But it still has a knee
That's laying down on my throat
And it makes it harder to breathe
And if that is something that you might not wanna read
I suggest that you skip over all of chapter 13
And chapter 14 costs a fortune
Mix of morphine and greed
And I am praying that the Lord will help me write 15
I'm on my knees for the seasons
I'm hoping God takes it easy
At least sees that I have gone through everything that he needed
But I am patiently waiting for when he tells me
You got a future to make
I gave you love so embrace
And to all the pages in my future
Clean as a slate
I know they won't be filled with hate
Cause when I look in your eyes
I feel my anger all fade
And right now you might feel like your life is stuck on replay
But we got a future to get ready for
So catch that bouquet
I got a book of my life
And half of these pages are blank
I got a spot for your signature
And I just need your name
So baby tell me
Will you stay

Written by:
Ryan Smith

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