Muhaned - Breathe

I fight my demons on the daily through the angels that you sent me
But I'm closer to the edge through the hands that they lent me
Father never stretched his hands out since he met me
"You're not worth the life that you're living" living rent free
As time goes by I forget to breathe
You weigh heavy on my conscious need to grab me a drink
Thirsty for the nourishment you were supposed to bring
I don't blame you don't feel shameful you were only 15
I smoke my lungs out pray it take care of our problems
Press down on my emotions, inflict harm, waste my karma
I threw some deuce in your honour
Since you made a promise and deuces on the both of us
I later threw up self inflicting pain to match my harbour
I supposed to cancel by 20 in both of your honours, Rabi willing inshallah
Sent the letter set the timing set the piece to set my mind in
Set the candle for the birthdays
I'm barely squeezing above the surface
I check my mental on the daily and it worsens
Your lost gained my obsession with first place
You never wrapped your presence up in the first place
Pay no mind to all the bullies bringing your name
Though I made the dots connect it hurt me in the worst way
FaceTime me and the first thing that you did was show concern and
You barley made it through the early Stages of your growing pains
I fight my demons on the daily through the angels that you sent me
But I'm closer to the edge through the hands that they lent me
Father never stretched his hands out since he met me
"You're not worth the life that you're living" living rent free
As time goes by I forget to breathe
You weigh heavy on my conscious need to grab me a drink
Thirsty for the nourishment you were supposed to bring
I don't blame you don't feel shameful you were only 15
My fear of losing Layth to you is the reason I can't sleep
Remanence on memories you both shared when he was 3
He diverted his attention now you're speaking more than we
Break the family up to make a family up kind of theme
Will I ever be closer to the heavens doors through your sins in me
Through the distance of the 24 years we didn't speak
Settled for being an orphan made my thoughts unsettling
Hope I find you along the way now is not the need
How could you pull moves from beneath your sleeves with no sleeves
Through breakdowns and breakthroughs found a better me
Family heirlooms full of promises my remedy got over the 41 heat solely
Some of my coldest nights approached me with cold feet
Run the jewels without a worry
Pray for his and my mercy
Pray we both go back without no injury
(Pray we both go back without no injury)
I fight my demons on the daily through the angels that you sent me
But I'm closer to the edge through the hands that they lent me
Father never stretched his hands out since he met me
"You're not worth the life that you're living" living rent free
As time goes by I forget to breathe
You weigh heavy on my conscious need to grab me a drink
Thirsty for the nourishment you were supposed to bring
I don't blame you don't feel shameful you were only 15

Written by:
Layth Shalash, Muhaned Shalash

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