Jasmine J Walker - Bruised, but Not Broken

Love
Love
Love
Love according to my perception was Supposed to wine and dine me
It was supposed to buy me nice gifts and Take me out on expensive trips
Love was supposed to look through the Corridors of my eyes and speak to my spirit
Softly saying, girl you are good as gold
In my mind love was supposed catch my Gaze from halfway across the room
Love was supposed to be beautiful
Love according to my perception was also Supposed to humiliate me
Love was supposed verbally abuse me in Public and physically abuse me in private
Love was supposed to bash my head Against the window pane
And watch the crimson liquid fall to the Ground screaming
You see what you made me do, baby I’m Sorry
And yes of course I know the saying love Blinds us
But I can’t live by that insane refrain Anymore
Because it’s not love that blinds me, it is Indeed deception
And you were deception at its best
How could I let it get this far
I whispered to myself as I cried and tried to
Cover up the scars you left on my face
What is this hold you have over me
You are like cocaine in my veins
My mind is jaded by your manipulating and Persuasive ways
I cannot withdraw from you
The very thought of leaving you makes me Sick to my stomach
So I constantly find myself running back to
You with open arms ready for my next fix
The signs were there from the start
And since God wasn’t our foundation, we Started on a lie
It wasn’t just you at fault, it was me too
I was the fool who let you silly rabbit Maneuver its way to my heart
You took from me what that snake took From Adam and Eve
When he and she bit the apple from the Tree
I used to dread those nights when you Would blackout and beat me
Like I was a stranger or just nobody on the Street
I allowed you
I allowed you
I allowed you to degrade me with your Verbal abuse and sexual misuse
Because I thought that was your way of Establishing a connection
Deep down I knew it wasn’t right but I Figured I was the problem
My body had become so numb it couldn’t Send my brain the right message
So I stayed with you in hopes of regaining Your affection
But this task was too hard
It was nerve racking living there in that Minefield of a house with you the ticking Bomb
I found myself tip toeing around explosives Because I didn’t want to lose my legs or Arms
So I did whatever it took just to keep you Calm
I was so ready
I was so ready to lose my faith and identity
So that you could have absolute power over Me
I was so ready to damage relationships and Break branches off of the family tree
So it could just be you and me
I was so ready to be your forever
Even if it meant losing my mind, body, and Soul forever
Losing my mind, body, and soul forever Never
Because in this moment I see you for who You are
The trick deception posing as love the treat
I refuse to give all of me away to you Because for you
My love, trust and devotion will never be Enough
So starting today enough is enough
I will not die as another victim or high rated Statistic
No more playing this game or waiting for You to change
No more never ending tears, silent cries,
Or living in fear because today I choose to survive
I was created in Gods image a beautiful
Treasure, his master piece, I’m sorry you couldn’t see
I now have the power to declare and decree
That today I will be free
The greatest gift God could’ve bestowed Upon me
Besides his beloved son of course, was the Power of choice
Today, I choose
To release these illegal soul ties that were Never constitutionally bound or ordained by God
No more drama
No more pain
No more neglect and disrespect
No more abuse and misuse
You wanted to destroy me
You thought you could ruin me
Well, here I am
Here I stand
Hurt but not destroyed
Bruised but not broken

Written by:
Jasmine Walker

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