Stibs - Capewood (feat. Roxiie Reese)

Since we've been at Capewood, it hasn't been the same
Somehow it all changed and yet everything remains
You still don't trust or believe what I say
Since the neighbors found me passed out in the driveway
Called the cops on me as I stumbled through the door
As I crumbled to the floor, I was humbled to the core
We took that red eye to St. Paul by the night
And I couldn't stop the shakes, sweating bullets on the flight
I wrote a letter to you, held my hand above the flames
I was tired of the shame but you loved me all the same
I know that you were hurt, had me worried for a bit
Know you hurried to commit but I heard you didn't quit
Heard you're doing better and I heard you found another
I hope you find the love that we couldn't give each other
Don't think I forgot, I care a lot, if I'm there or not
If only as a spare thought, we never had a fair shot
Say you'd break down if I leave but I could never
Cause you took a chance on me when I know you needed better
Tried to find the right time but had the wrong day
Still have the same pain but we came a long way
Our dads weren't there, learned to shave on my own
But look at this life that we made all alone
I still have our old pics saved on my phone
It's been a long road but I finally made it home
To all the ones left out
The hopeless fiends with broken dreams
We're nothing but wasted potential
But this pain is essential
I know the strength it takes
So don't break from the weight of your mistakes
And for the nights that I tried to die
I'll still show up when I don't know why anymore
Don't want to get high anymore
Don't want to get by anymore
And when I'm tired and done
And I've gone so numb that I can't even cry anymore
I won't let it turn me coldhearted
Even if I'm back where I started
And I'll go on my own
Cause it's been a hard year and a long road home
Had to accept that I couldn't have it all
In God's eyes I guess I had to fall but never thought I can't evolve
Made the sacrifices that you couldn't make, the prices that you couldn't pay
I took it all, I took the pain, I pushed until I pulled away
And this will always be a part of me
You got the early lead, that doesn't mean you're hard to beat
This arguably my hardest beat, don't need a harmony
My wrist already frozen, ice is flowing through my arteries
Traumatized I had to stay inside but wasn't made to hide
Saw through the smoke and mirrors, didn't even break a stride
You could take it all and couldn't take my pride
I found sanctuary as I nearly died and now I'm sanctified
And God knows my intentions
Soul, body, spirit, and my mind is an extension
I try to find direction as I fight for my redemption
To find the silver lining in the timing is progression
I hope this finds you well
I gave my all to this small little project
I've been working day in and day out
And nobody even really knows I'm doing this
The world moved on as I spent all my time, money
And energy on a dream that I can't even really see anymore
But no matter what happens nobody can take this from me
And as meaningless as it might seem from the outside looking in
I can finally say I saw something through to the very end
And if you're here
I just want to say thanks for listening
Cause it means a lot more than you know
That's all I really have
From me to you
It's Stibs
To all the ones left out
The hopeless fiends with broken dreams
We're nothing but wasted potential
But this pain is essential
I know the strength it takes
So don't break from the weight of your mistakes
And for the nights that I tried to die
I'll still show up when I don't know why anymore
Don't want to get high anymore
Don't want to get by anymore
And when I'm tired and done
And I've gone so numb that I can't even cry anymore
I won't let it turn me coldhearted
Even if I'm back where I started
And I'll go on my own
Cause it's been a hard year and a long road home

Written by:
Ethan Stibich

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