Zedz - Changing

Had to start changing
Cos I got sick and tired of waiting
Faking a smile while I was debating
Contemplating the worst, it was draining
Constantly blaming
Everyone else but myself for my hatred
Brewing and raging, always complaining
That was my life, no lie, it was straining
Then I started changing
Stopped caring for peoples ratings
Everyone's on going out celebrating
But they're all gone when the clouds start raining
Started escaping
Off in my own head, taking vacations
Can't do shit with no dedication
Had no drive, then I started changing

Had to start changing
Cos I got sick tired of waiting
Anticipating the worst, it was making me sick
And I could feel my heart breaking
On edge, I felt my world shaking
Belly would turn at the sight of the bacon
Honestly mate, it was peak, didn't sleep
For a week and I swear I felt my brain aching
When I found out bro was deceased
I was weak and it was me I was blaming
Went from hating everyone else
To pointing finger at self and shaming
What you know about taking
Meds for your head til it's weight that you're gaining
Used to be skinny and sniff cocaine
My life's been a maze but it ain't been amazing
I was young, I was dumb and I drunk
Way too much rum until I was spun
It's mad, I was oh so sad
But everyone must have thought I was just dumb
Still a kid and I hid from myself
Didn't tell no one until I told Mum
Weren't even having fun
Had to tell myself, this cannot run
Life changes, you can't avoid it
I was slipping and man enjoyed it
Now half of the ones that boyed it
Are out here sniffing shit gear in the toilets
Their opinions voided
Couldn't give a shit who I've disappointed
King of my own world, I've been anointed
Felt so low, now my souls been hoisted

Had to start changing
Cos I got sick and tired of waiting
Faking a smile while I was debating
Contemplating the worst, it was draining
Constantly blaming
Everyone else but myself for my hatred
Brewing and raging, always complaining
That was my life, no lie, it was straining
Then I started changing
Stopped caring for peoples ratings
Everyone's on going out celebrating
But they're all gone when the clouds start raining
Started escaping
Off in my own head, taking vacations
Can't do shit with no dedication
Had no drive, then I started changing

Let me be real for a minute and say how I feel
I was feeling ill for a minute
Had to take a step back, relax and heal
Shit went left, got mad but still
Had time for the ones that left me to stress
When I needed them most, it's a joke but still
Man, I did what I could and I kept it real
I ain't got no appeal
To most man cos I don't wanna deal
With the false friendships, fuck that, end it
For the most part, keep my lips sealed
Cos how can I chill
With man that don't understand how I feel
Mourning in the morning
And grieving in the evening, it kills
But I still gotta get up
Charged up and I won't let up
Life's been fucked, ain't had much luck
And it's starting to feel like a set up
Feeling fed up
Any old beat get dead up
Time's going fast, like oh my gosh
I swear all the seasons sped up

Best be for the better
People change with the weather
I've got mates that'll do nice rates
On the flavours, haze or the cheddar
I'll keep it together
Til I reach the end of my tether
My ex changed in a matter of days
And now I wish that I never met her

Had to start changing
Cos I got sick and tired of waiting
Faking a smile while I was debating
Contemplating the worst, it was draining
Constantly blaming
Everyone else but myself for my hatred
Brewing and raging, always complaining
That was my life, no lie, it was straining
Then I started changing
Stopped caring for peoples ratings
Everyone's on going out celebrating
But they're all gone when the clouds start raining
Started escaping
Off in my own head, taking vacations
Can't do shit with no dedication
Had no drive, then I started changing

If you feel like you gotta make a change
Best make a change then
Best make a change
Clock that I'm old when I go
To my bro's and I see a playpen, boy and a girl
I was locked up, where the nittys ask
For a blast on your vape pen
Yeah, they beg for a blast
I was feeling peak for a week
But I settled in by day ten
Cool and calm
Stopped caring for peoples ratings
Why? Cos I don't rate them
Swear
Life's not fair, now I just don't
Care, huh
If I don't make friends, oh I see
Fool for another souls shit
No, you will never see a day when, nope, never
I'm done tryna impress pricks
Fuck that, can I get an amen? Amen
Cos I'm changing, morphing, lacking endorphins
Blessed in the night but agg in the mornings
My mood swings don't come with a warning
If they did, my life would be boring
Everyone's up for the champagne pouring
But they aint there when the stress starts calling
Fair weather friends, I find it appalling
Know about low, so I wanna be soaring
Trust me
Conceded, so I gotta start scoring
If I ain't writing, probably recording
So tired that my eyes are watering
I don't know a thing about shows or touring
But pass me the mic and I'm corning
When I'm off license, time for exploring
Changes I'm making, they may be rewarding

Had to start changing
Cos I got sick and tired of waiting
Faking a smile while I was debating
Contemplating the worst, it was draining
Constantly blaming
Everyone else but myself for my hatred
Brewing and raging, always complaining
That was my life, no lie, it was straining
Then I started changing
Stopped caring for peoples ratings
Everyone's on going out celebrating
But they're all gone when the clouds start raining
Started escaping
Off in my own head, taking vacations
Can't do shit with no dedication
Had no drive, then I started changing

Written by:
Zack Fallon

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