Elusive - Crash

Thought you'd let me know but I don't see you typing
I could say some shit but I don't see us fighting
Always said you're busy making new excuses
Sick of counting seconds cause it's been a minute
I tried to call you but it bounced back
I hear the dial tone more than your real voice
I see the blue ticks more than your real face
I'm getting sea sick the way he sways the boat
You call him pied piper when he lays the viper
I'd let you go but then I'd lose a friend
I lost too many so just play your part
I know you're happy so I'm happy for you
But it makes me angry when you make up stories
Then you try to tell me that you're really sorry
Now it's kinda hollow or am I just tripping?
Maybe overthinking why we're kinda distant?
Cause I could probably overlook it but I'm scared that you lied
Like the boy who cried wolf I guess I'm picking a side
If I have to call again I'm hanging up cause I tried
And I don't wanna cut you off but I have to decide

Crashing in on myself
(I'm crashing in)
Screaming out of my mind
(Screaming out)
I'm sick of being lied to
(sick of being lied to)
And I don't wanna fight you
(And I don't wanna fight you)
But I don't wanna hate you
My circle's small without you
I'm trapped inside my own thoughts
(And I'm trapped down but I'm)
I've settled down I'm better now but I'm
Crashing in on myself
(I'm crashing in)
Screaming out of my mind
(Screaming out)
I'm sick of being lied to
(sick of being lied to)
And I don't wanna fight you
(And I don't wanna fight you)
But I don't wanna hate you
My circle's small without you
I'm trapped inside my own thoughts
(And I'm trapped down but I'm)
I've settled down I'm better now but I'm

I'm crashing in on myself
I'm crashing in
Screaming out of my mind

I think I'm overcompensating for my feelings I tried
To never leave you with a choice that forces you to decide
Between the people that you need I understand why you lied
I know it's really not your fault cause it just happens with time
Or maybe I'm lying
To you and to myself and how I hated the change
You know I never double text and so I'm partly to blame
I'm sick of cycles repeating seeking a different route to truths
That I don't know how to handle
Maybe that's an excuse
Maybe I'm looking for reasons not to link up with you
Maybe I think that I'm better if I just cut you loose
But I don't know if I want it
Never wanted to choose
Balance my feelings I'm scared that you never call again
Abandon my thinking afraid that I never call again
Stare at my phone and then pause and I think of what to say
But it's always the same
It's always the same

I don't give a fuck
If I tell you how I feel then would you give him up
I know you know that I don't really love you
I just wanna be the one that makes you scream at God
Have your body clutch your soul admit defeat
Just let me beat it feel this heat until you need it
Have you screeching on repeat
Singing hallelujah

Written by:
Kamohelo Tshabalala

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