AnB Sol - Darkness (feat. MehakSaeed)

You might think i'm annoying with this shit
Talking bout me cuz i'm flowing with the fits
Took shit to the heart and now i don't know where to start
All of this anger maybe i'm meant to be this way or not
Maybe i'm never intended to be alive
Maybe i can't burst out my energy like a pride
I just want someone right here by my side
Cuz i can't take anymore of these stone cold lies
Backstab me, leave me for dead, thinking that imma cry
Well before i might've gone against my own side
And don't forget all those times that i wanted to die
Because i overthought the forever in you and I
You coulda left me right here, before you even met me
If i had known you would do this, why would i make you even let me
What gains do i get, what memories do i even wanna forget
My mind is just filled with darkness
I can't be kind with how much i'm heartless
All this pain, it's super hard to even gain
And my brain makes me feel like i won't change
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Well i guess i'm going nowhere, I guess I gotta try
Look at all these lies, that I just have to buy
Sit there and do nothing, watch it go by
Lying on this bed, twisting my head just while time flies
Putting all my soul into living in this universe
I swear with everything i been through i think i'm cursed
Everyone knows that i always put others first
But nobody likes that, they want me for dead, imma just disperse
I just hate how society really thinks a way
Thinking that imma let this go and imma be ok
Well, have you ever felt the amounts of all this pain?
Go through the shit i went through then come back to me with the same complaint
All of you guys have friends to tie these loose ends
Then chill with them again, without ever making it bend
For me though I start losing everything around me
Can't believe I've been saying i really found me
When it was my tolerate levels being more high than usual
How did i ever get to this point without a blunt, it's so unusual
Seen friends change their ways, like they wanted me to be the one that's insane
The love i drained for these fakes, it's messing hard with my brain
All these wasted times i'll never get back when i coulda done other things
Makes me wonder if i'm just here or if i'm meant to be a king, yeah
My mind is just filled with darkness
I can't be kind with how much i'm heartless
All this pain, it's super hard to even gain
And my brain makes me feel like i won't change
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Makes me wonder where i'm even going
Makes me wonder where i'm even going

Written by:
Amir B, Mehak Saeed

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